Help I've reached a new low in Suicide...

[Griffith_NPD]

I can't wait any longer, this pain is too much.... I've seen enough my love, I have, you're way happier without me, I was not good enough for you, I'm sorry.... I must CTB today, but my only method is really just bleeding out from stabbing myself, I don't have the SN yet, and this pain is too great... I don't feel anything, I just feel emotionless... I would hang myself but I don't think I have access to a rope, nor do I have somewhere where I can hang it up... I just need to CTB today... please, does someone know the best way of just... stabbing yourself? I keep holding the knife and trying to stab myself in the stomach but my body is stopping me from going to deep... I need to die this way. I need to die by seppuku. Please help me, any methods of making this easier....

 

[venin]

I can't wait any longer, this pain is too much.... I've seen enough my love, I have, you're way happier without me, I was not good enough for you, I'm sorry.... I must CTB today, but my only method is really just bleeding out from stabbing myself, I don't have the SN yet, and this pain is too great... I don't feel anything, I just feel emotionless... I would hang myself but I don't think I have access to a rope, nor do I have somewhere where I can hang it up... I just need to CTB today... please, does someone know the best way of just... stabbing yourself? I keep holding the knife and trying to stab myself in the stomach but my body is stopping me from going to deep... I need to die this way. I need to die by seppuku. Please help me, any methods of making this easier....

we're here for you whatever you choose

 

[Griffith_NPD]

I just need help.... These 18 years have been just suffering...

 

[dialogos]

Maybe if you get it off your chest, the pain won't be so overwhelming. Did you breakup?

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so dreadful suffering like that, existence is just too cruel but anyway I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for as I get that it really can be so torturous feeling trapped here.

 

[FindingHome]

I hope you find the peace you need!

 

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

Stabbing yourself is such a hard and painful way to go. I don't know if there even is anything that could possibly make this any easier.

Are you still there, dear stranger? Do you want to tell us more about your soul and the things on your mind?
I'm sure this community is always ready to listen, if you want to ♡

 

[Griffith_NPD]

Stabbing yourself is such a hard and painful way to go. I don't know if there even is anything that could possibly make this any easier.

Are you still there, dear stranger? Do you want to tell us more about your soul and the things on your mind?
I'm sure this community is always ready to listen, if you want to ♡

Unfortunately I still am alive. Everyday is suffering, I feel nothing, emotionless, empty, soul-less... I just wish to be dead... I understand stabbing would be painful, but I want to bleed out, and I just want to commit Seppuku... But I don't know if there is some drug out there, or something, like freezing my skin or something to make the initial pain, less...painful...

And my soul, it's a very dark one, one that shouldn't be in the same realm as everyone else....

 

[Starry✧･ﾟDaze]

I'm so sorry you suffer this much. Nobody should ever feel such pain. Thank you for replying and opening up a tiny bit ♡

If that's really the way you want to go, I would look for those that know a lot about opioids and pain meds in this forum. Maybe they can help you with your decision or offer some alternative if you should decide against this method.

Also, I'd recommend reading these threads first:

thinking of stabbing myself

just one question tho, if i get high or i take some cough medicine that induces sleepiness, will i not feel too much on the stabbing?

sanctioned-suicide.net

CTB by stabbing of stomach

I'll keep this short because I'm too tired to think about what I'm writing. I'm thinking of attempting by stabbing myself two or three times in the stomach. To people that have tried to CTB in similar ways - should I consider it or is it not worth it?

sanctioned-suicide.net

I understand that your soul doesn't want to be near others, it sounds like you really don't want to hurt them with your own pain.
Maybe this won't help, but here you will find plenty souls who dwell in the dark, some which have never experienced any light in their lives. They will try to understand and listen, if you ever need it ♡

 

[Gonnerr]

If you really want to be set free from that hell , check out carbon monoxide methods.

 

[dialogos]

And my soul, it's a very dark one, one that shouldn't be in the same realm as everyone else...

Actually, this world is dark and we belong to a better one.

 

[Griffith_NPD]

I just want to be loved....why.....why am I so cursed..... Anyways, the SN is still not arriving, suffering 24/7 still. Still feel nothing. I've seen more steps on "Seppuku", just need something to numb it, will do more research, Thank you for the Help everyone....