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AbusedInnocent
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- Apr 5, 2024
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I've made it to my CTB spot, I know I can't stay for more than a few days though.
I could easily hang myself and nobody would find me in days.
But now I have to face SI, the concept of nonexistence is incomprehensible to me.
I'm convinced that I'm better off dead but I can't help but rethink such an important decision when I'm so close to doing it, I've already thought about it though and I know that I should do it.
I need motivation to CTB, would thinking about the worst aspects of my life give me the courage to do it? Or should I just try to calm down then get up and do it quickly without further thought?
I could easily hang myself and nobody would find me in days.
But now I have to face SI, the concept of nonexistence is incomprehensible to me.
I'm convinced that I'm better off dead but I can't help but rethink such an important decision when I'm so close to doing it, I've already thought about it though and I know that I should do it.
I need motivation to CTB, would thinking about the worst aspects of my life give me the courage to do it? Or should I just try to calm down then get up and do it quickly without further thought?