Venting I've lost my mental stability

[Judah]

Hi guys, I have been going through bad times, which is causing my mental stability to deteriorate, I have sudden fits of anger, sudden emotional changes, anxiety, excessive sweating, recurring hallucinations, low blood pressure..., I am very unstable, More than ever, I cannot stay calm or stay calm, a specialist told me that I should go to a psychiatrist, but I have not wanted to go, I am afraid of psychiatrists, I am afraid of their medications, because I have seen with my own eyes the consequences that can cause the negligence or ineptitude of psychiatrists, especially in the third world.

In a conversation with my best friend, I ended up saying something painful to him, which made him feel bad and I decided to withdraw abruptly from the conversation because I didn't want to hurt anyone anymore, I also made another user of the forum angry, I'm losing my mind control.

One of the reasons for this is that I am accumulating so many burdens on myself: Rebeca, my stateless situation, my disability, my autism, my exile, seeing my mother age, my lack of interest in having to work, my friends who have been dejected. in the midst of the protest and rebellion movements in my country... I really want to shout! Enough is enough! Why do I have to carry so much weight on me? Did I make a serious mistake in the past to receive this punishment?

He tried to get me away from the forum to avoid committing any mistake, but nevertheless, I have no one to listen to me, I am alone.

 

[Frog]

Hey, I saw that you wanted to take a break. It's okay. It's okay to be crazy here. You can be an asshole and apologize when you feel better. Your life is out of control; I don't expect you to be happy or nice.

You might want to consider the psychiatrist just to get a "happy pill" like Xanax. It'll make you feel calm and sleepy.

 

[GentleJerk]

I hope you can find some relief from this, I understand not trusting psychiatrists especially in the third world.

I don't mean any offence by this at all, but I saw you mention in a few other threads about being a heavy drinker... Emotional changes, anxiety, excessive sweating, hallucinations, blood pressure issues, these are all symptoms of alcohol dependence and especially delirium tremens. Do you think it could be worth cutting down on alcohol to see if it helps?

As frog said, you might want to consider getting something like a benzo, one actually useful function of them is to counteract the bad side effects from alcohol abuse. They can prevent the nasty withdrawal symptoms, but you just need to be careful with them so you don't end up addicted.

No matter what you do, may the outcome be good.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering so much. It sounds like you are going through a lot. I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. I can imagine it must be unbearable having to deal with all that. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Istanbulite]

No, OP. You are of sound mind.

 

[Judah]

You might want to consider the psychiatrist just to get a "happy pill" like Xanax. It'll make you feel calm and sleepy.

Thank you, I will try, I have never taken this type of

I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. I can imagine it must be unbearable having to deal with all that.

The worst of all is that I know that surely someone more competent than me could withstand all this, face a situation like this and seek or think of better solutions, I'm just not like that, I can easily end up in a dead end. I just don't feel able to handle all of this anymore

 

[czx85]

Thank you, I will try, I have never taken this type of

The worst of all is that I know that surely someone more competent than me could withstand all this, face a situation like this and seek or think of better solutions, I'm just not like that, I can easily end up in a dead end. I just don't feel able to handle all of this anymore

Autism here. Completely relate to the easily throw up urge. Feel exact the same way.

 

[ojinzo]

Did I make a serious mistake in the past to receive this punishment?

I think about this all the time. When I reflect on my life, the things I once hated are things now I look back on and think "it wasn't that bad...". I oftentimes find myself wondering " cosmically, what did I do to afford this torment? when will it, if ever, end?"