I've long contemplated suicide by cop

[Twsres]

I need to die. But I've tried to do it too many times by myself and as exhibit a) that I'm worthless I don't know how to kill myself properly. No matter how many times I try I always wake up either hungover from a massive cocktail of pills a booze, with a cord around my neck or with a gash. I need to convince my local police officers to put a bullet through my brains and drive away. I know that "police officially can't just kill random people" but I'm worthless. Nobody would care if I died. Hell given time, those close to me would come to their senses that I'm the worst living thing to ever exist and give the officer a medal. So it's not a matter of them getting in trouble.

I do not want to scare them. It's not their fault I'm worthless. I just want them to walk up, cuff me, kick me, tase me repeatedly and then finally shoot me and maybe run me over with their cruiser so I can die the death of someone who did nothing but make everyone's lives worse. And I need help convincing them in a way where no one who actually matters gets hurt.

 

[Alchemist]

I wouldn't do that. First, it's not nice to involve other on your ctb. Second, that can backfire in many ways. There are betters methods like SN, and above all, it's better to do it while sober.

 

[Twsres]

I wouldn't do that. First, it's not nice to involve other on your ctb. Second, that can backfire in many ways.

I understand your first point, but I have made more attempts than I can count and have ruled that I need someone to do it for me. Which was why I decided on a cop specifically. They know what they're doing, they're armed and they'd get a medal (and perhaps even a promotion) for killing such a worthless piece of crap.

And how could it backfire? They get their aggression out beating me up, then they shoot me until I'm a bunch of chunks like I should be.

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

I think the bigger risk is you not dying. They are aiming for center of mass, not the head. They shoot until you fall down, which is pretty fast. You could just be paralyzed or nothing at all. There has to be another way.

 

[Rising Phoenix]

I need to die. But I've tried to do it too many times by myself and as exhibit a) that I'm worthless I don't know how to kill myself properly. No matter how many times I try I always wake up either hungover from a massive cocktail of pills a booze, with a cord around my neck or with a gash. I need to convince my local police officers to put a bullet through my brains and drive away. I know that "police officially can't just kill random people" but I'm worthless. Nobody would care if I died. Hell given time, those close to me would come to their senses that I'm the worst living thing to ever exist and give the officer a medal. So it's not a matter of them getting in trouble.

I do not want to scare them. It's not their fault I'm worthless. I just want them to walk up, cuff me, kick me, tase me repeatedly and then finally shoot me and maybe run me over with their cruiser so I can die the death of someone who did nothing but make everyone's lives worse. And I need help convincing them in a way where no one who actually matters gets hurt.

Terrible idea. Don't put an officer through that. We already have some tried and true methods like SN, fentanyl, nemutal, niteogen etc.

 

[Kowahi2310]

Cops are trained to use sufficient force and not go overboard. That is to say, they would likely try to immobilize you, likely shooting you in your limbs. That will just leave you paralyzed but alive. In all likelihood, I think they will just use their taser.

 

[Jean Améry]

Unless you threaten them with credible lethal force they will not likely respond with deadly force as this could be the end of their career and land them in jail.

Even if you do threaten them sufficiently for them to shoot to kill this might still backfire and you might end up alive.

Threatening a police officer is a punishable offence and if you're not shot dead you will end up incarcerated, probably wishing you were dead.

No police officer will walk up to you for no good reason, cuff you, abuse you let alone kill you unless they happen to be sadistic serial killers aswell.

I understand you're desperate but imo suicide by cop is not a good idea at all.

 

[bornsinner]

if you pull out a fake gun and apporach the cop at night it maybe could work

 

[siray]

I understand your first point, but I have made more attempts than I can count and have ruled that I need someone to do it for me. Which was why I decided on a cop specifically. They know what they're doing, they're armed and they'd get a medal (and perhaps even a promotion) for killing such a worthless piece of crap.

And how could it backfire? They get their aggression out beating me up, then they shoot me until I'm a bunch of chunks like I should be.

I find the idea of the officer getting a medal for killing you very comic. On a serious note, if you're that audacious, why don't you jump off a tall building? It's only a few seconds of terror followed by a few minutes of pain (which can be prevented altogether if you land on concrete from 10 stories or higher.)

This is my method of choice if I cannot obtain a shotgun.

 

[woxihuanni]

Why'd you think you are so worthless?

The sad? truth is that you are not special enough in a bad way to be so worthless that everyone should rejoice over your death. Neither are you incredibly precious like shrinks might want you to believe. You are, in all probability, a rather average person with a lot of emotional turmoil.

 

[Jean4]

I have multiple attempts. After my last attempt, all I could think about was my cat. If I was to CTB, my cat, who loves me more than anything in this world, would be put to sleep. The only thing keeping me here. How can I do that to an innocent?

You put this police officer through this, they would live with it for the rest of their lives. It could destroy them. Nobody should drag an innocent into our determination to CTB. It just isn't right IMHO.

 

[Sweet emotion]

The whole idea is laughable.

 

[Ratherbeskinny]

This isn't going to be like what you may have seen in movies. If you try this, people (people that, according to you, matter) will get hurt and you'll probably end up in jail. The question is if you'll still going to be able to walk and talk like a "normal" human being.