Nerdyartist85

Nerdyartist85

Disappointment
Nov 27, 2018
62
But does anyone feel like they're on the opposite side of the spectrum? Like they feel they would be less of a burden to others (whether it's financially or mentally) if they just ctb?

Just a random depressed thought I had...
 
BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
Yeah I had that feeling. I just felt like a burden to those who were helping me.
 
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s1mplem3

Arcanist
Mar 4, 2020
454
Sure, taxpayers are so valuable.
 
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InTheAirTonight

InTheAirTonight

I tried
Feb 29, 2020
475
I don't like humans
 
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PrettyMoose

PrettyMoose

Eat my arse, Pain&Sh*tness & Mindf*ckitation Grift
Mar 1, 2020
280
We are need machines by default, it is how nature has things set up for all forms of life. Non-existence could be more valuable to us in that way because there are no needs in the void.

But to society we have more value alive because we can be exploited, the powerful who take way more than they need would lose their position if it weren't for the peasants. Which, if you're like me, just makes me want to exit even harder. I don't want to contribute to this corrupt system.
 
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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,444
More of a liability.
I'm epileptic. If I have a seizure at work, they have to pay me a large sum of money. Obviously, they don't want to have me have a seizure at work. They don't want anybody to have a seizure there. And so, when somebody leaves, they try to dump their job on me. Obviously they don't raise my pay.
To be fair, partially it's my fault: back when we had an actually awesome and caring boss I chased her around with a notebook, carefully detailing what each person does in case I get to do their task.
One day Joe (fake name) took a vacation. I had some trouble replacing Joe, but managed.
Eventually, Joe left and I replaced him permanently. And then the new (well, new new new new, technically) boss came in, heard I have this notebook and noted.
One day Mike (fake name) took a vacation. New boss put me instead of him. It was a seizure ridden shitshow.
Sure, I had the theory written down, but being screamed at from all sides makes things difficult.
Mike took another vacation a year later. Despite me begging to not replace mike, I was put in his place again. More seizures.
Before mike finally left I had to do a ceremonial burning of the notebook and record it as proof that I don't have it anymore. It took the new boss a bit, but he stopped trying to put me as a replacement for Mike. That was a shitshow on its own.

I feel I'm a burden to my father, though, as he has a washing machine and I don't. He does my laundry.
Now he sneaks out of his old people house to pick up my laundry. Every time I try to repress the thoughts I might be asymptomatic and kill the entire building with my socks.
 
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jgm63

Visionary
Oct 28, 2019
2,467
Yeah I had that feeling. I just felt like a burden to those who were helping me.
Perhaps life moves in cycles.
Maybe in 10 years from now, you will be helping others.
Maybe it's okay to receive help until such time as you become strong enough to no longer need it....
 
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