CaliCatCharlie

CaliCatCharlie

Nature's Mockery
May 28, 2021
68
I've finally found happiness and what I wanted to live for! Of course this will be no easy journey in my recovery but I do hope the best for myself. I'm moving states and I've made a very close friend that I love dearly and that means the world to me. He's a sweetheart and the probably the only person I've met that's actually made me reconsider how I feel because unlike most people he has actually listened to me and not just repeat the same things to me like everyone else. My friendship with my friend has also made me realize some things with myself that I need to work on. I've repaired my relationship with my siblings and I hope to keep it that way. I never thought I'd see the light in my days. It is a rather good feeling and I hope it carries on and keeps me going to reach success in recovery. I feel like I can't let go of the people I've surrounded myself with because I've realized they need me and they do LOVE me and I love them back. A thing I didn't think I could give. So this is my last post! Hopefully! Thank you all for your words in the past they may have shaped my path that I'm on now. I will miss you all. Hopefully I don't relapse.
 
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timf

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Mar 26, 2020
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It sounds like you have a firm grasp on hope. Even if you hit another "speed bump" in the future, you will have the knowledge that you were able to come to the point of hope that you have now.
 
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MeltedJello

MeltedJello

My brain is a liquid mess.
Aug 18, 2021
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I'm happy for you :heart:
Goodluck on your chosen path, & stay safe out there :)
 
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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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I've finally found happiness and what I wanted to live for!

It sounds like you're infatuated with your friend. I don't mean to rain on your parade, but please don't get your expectations too high too quickly. That's never a good idea... Good luck!
 
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CaliCatCharlie

CaliCatCharlie

Nature's Mockery
May 28, 2021
68
It sounds like you're infatuated with your friend. I don't mean to rain on your parade, but please don't get your expectations too high too quickly. That's never a good idea... Good luck!
Not at all, you've taken my sentence out of context. It's not solely about my friend. I'm doing this for my family and my friends. That's what this is about, they've just helped me quite a lot. I am thankful for them but I'm not infatuated with them. My expectations aren't too high especially the way my life has been throughout my entire life, but I know this is for certain a good thing that'll change my life for the better. The people around me are very good people and are trying their best to see me through. I feel like I've finally got a good thing, so why not be excited about it? There's no time for me to worry about anything in the future. I'm trying to be happy about it now. I'll know if it works out or not in time but anyway I'll try my best to stay positive especially for my loved ones.
 
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Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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It's not solely about my friend. I'm doing this for my family and my friends. That's what this is about, they've just helped me quite a lot. I'll know if it works out or not in time but anyway I'll try my best to stay positive especially for my loved ones.

Don't be positive for your loved ones, be realistic for yourself. Optimism can be just as dangerous as pessimism. Realism is the way to go, especially for people who've experienced extreme suicidality... I'm not arguing with you, I'm not trying to drag you down, I sincerely wish you luck. You're free to ignore my advice...
 
miserableforever

miserableforever

Arcanist
Oct 23, 2020
488
Don't be positive for your loved ones, be realistic for yourself. Optimism can be just as dangerous as pessimism. Realism is the way to go, especially for people who've experienced extreme suicidality... I'm not arguing with you, I'm not trying to drag you down, I sincerely wish you luck. You're free to ignore my advice...
I was thinking just that. Enjoy the new experience but please, please, be happy for YOU. Only you can save yourself. Recharge those batteries for now, let go for a bit, explore the horizon, but use caution in case things go wrong. Much love <3
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm pleased for you that things got better. Hopefully they continue to stay that way, I wish you the best.
 
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MiserableInCT

MiserableInCT

Desperately lonely
Feb 4, 2022
22
"You don't have to drag me down, I descend."

Shawn Colvin's album "A Few Small Repairs" had my stand-by comfort for twenty years. Then my wife got me tickets to hear Shawn perform live -- three days before she left me and asked for a divorce. So much for comfort anywhere.
 
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aplacetogo

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Feb 9, 2022
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Not at all, you've taken my sentence out of context. It's not solely about my friend. I'm doing this for my family and my friends. That's what this is about, they've just helped me quite a lot. I am thankful for them but I'm not infatuated with them. My expectations aren't too high especially the way my life has been throughout my entire life, but I know this is for certain a good thing that'll change my life for the better. The people around me are very good people and are trying their best to see me through. I feel like I've finally got a good thing, so why not be excited about it? There's no time for me to worry about anything in the future. I'm trying to be happy about it now. I'll know if it works out or not in time but anyway I'll try my best to stay positive especially for my loved ones.

"I feel like I've finally got a good thing, so why not be excited about it? There's no time for me to worry about anything in the future. I'm trying to be happy about it now. I'll know if it works out or not in time"

This right here, this is the attitude. We may be doomed, but why not enjoy the journey on the way, irrespective of how it ends? We can always leave if it gets too much. That's the power of being pro-choice. You don't have to make fake promises about the future to get people to stay, so long as you are willing to let them leave if they choose.

All the best!
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
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Fantastic for you and Godspeed in your new awesome life.

Walter
 
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