SparkleWater
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- Oct 13, 2020
- 88
My mom is dying of cancer. She is choosing to lie to herself than accept it and keeping false hope that whatever bullshit treatment shes gonna try next is going to help.
When she dies, when she does, after we have buried her I'll end my life. most likely by that blood choke method with cornhole bags. Maybe take some of my edible to try and relax my nerves if that helps.
If my dad's routine stays unchanged I will most likely have the house to myself. I don't really care if he finds my body. In some way I want him to. He brought me into this world against my mom's consent so its only fitting to see what the result ends up being.
Its strange i guess how I'm feeling nothing as I type this.
My boyfriend told me he would have trouble moving on from me but he would need to. In fairness he should have seen this comming. Saying i should go into debt if i have to.
fuck that. honestly. its over if you have no money. and knowing my mental health issues and my ineptitudes i would spend the rest of my life trying to dig myself out and i quote frankly dont wanna do that.
When she dies, when she does, after we have buried her I'll end my life. most likely by that blood choke method with cornhole bags. Maybe take some of my edible to try and relax my nerves if that helps.
If my dad's routine stays unchanged I will most likely have the house to myself. I don't really care if he finds my body. In some way I want him to. He brought me into this world against my mom's consent so its only fitting to see what the result ends up being.
Its strange i guess how I'm feeling nothing as I type this.
My boyfriend told me he would have trouble moving on from me but he would need to. In fairness he should have seen this comming. Saying i should go into debt if i have to.
fuck that. honestly. its over if you have no money. and knowing my mental health issues and my ineptitudes i would spend the rest of my life trying to dig myself out and i quote frankly dont wanna do that.
