nihilism44
trying my best
- May 2, 2021
- 79
Today i'm going to exercise (I hope). it's gonna be difficult since it's been so long but I remember how good it used to make me feel. I may even start reading up on spirituality again and reaching out to the friends that I cut off. I'm still extremely suicidal but I'm going to try to make steps towards fixing myself over this next month. I know this won't fix my mental illness, but it may make it more bearable. If I'm not feeling better after a month or two then I may decide to ctb. Getting out of bed and finding the motivation to do this is gonna be rough but I have to at least try before I make any irrational decisions... I really don't want to end up like my mom... wish me luck.