I’ve decided on starvation.

[livingonlytodie]

With no food, my body should shut down pretty quickly. Even when I have good days the thought of having to wake up for 70 more years makes me puke. I hope I die a peaceful painless death in my sleep.

 

[shrizoid]

With no food, my body should shut down pretty quickly. Even when I have good days the thought of having to wake up for 70 more years makes me puke. I hope I die a peaceful painless death in my sleep.

Have you read the "methods not to attempt" page yet by any chance?

 

[livingonlytodie]

Have you read the "methods not to attempt" page yet by any chance?

I did but I think the info about starvation is wrong. A lot of cancer patients die from this right? It can't be too painful. Just falling asleep one day & never getting back up I'd hope

 

[Namelesa]

It probably won't be a peaceful death and will take a long time. You will probably fail by SI taking control and getting you to eat something.

I did but I think the info about starvation is wrong. A lot of cancer patients die from this right? It can't be too painful. Just falling asleep one day & never getting back up I'd hope

they had cancer so that is probably a contributing factor. Also less likely to be able to get food when in that state.

If you do choose to do this tho I hope you can escape the pain of this world or if it fails you recover from it smoothly.

 

[longlifetolive]

Starvation is a very painful way to go, it takes many many days and throughout those days you will feel extreme pain and SI to eat any food. Your brain will FORCE yourself to go eat food if you have access to it. It is a very horrible way to go. I would HIGHLY recommend choosing a different method.

 

[livingonlytodie]

It probably won't be a peaceful death and will take a long time. You will probably fail by SI taking control and getting you to eat something.


they had cancer so that is probably a contributing factor. Also less likely to be able to get food when in that state.

If you do choose to do this tho I hope you can escape the pain of this world or if it fails you recover from it smoothly.

I can't buy a gun anymore since I was hospitalized a few days ago so my methods are kinda limited now. Anorexia is too slow & I'd need something more quick & easy. Someone on here used to want to help me but ever since I abandoned him I doubt he'd ever want to talk to me again. I'm sure you probably know who im referring to. Fuck my life.

 

[shrizoid]

I did but I think the info about starvation is wrong. A lot of cancer patients die from this right? It can't be too painful. Just falling asleep one day & never getting back up I'd hope

Yeah but they have cancer, something already harming them constantly, unless you have a medical condition as well?

 

[livingonlytodie]

Yeah but they have cancer, something already harming them constantly, unless you have a medical condition as well?

I don't LMFAO FUCKK!!!!!! SN it is.

 

[deadbidaylight]

This will 100% not be a peaceful way to die. Having your organs slowly fail while continuing to live is a horrible existence. And it's a slow death.

My grandfather slowly starved to death due to stomach cancer and while he laid in bed, skin and bones, he said it was the worst pain he'd ever experienced. It's ironic because before he was sick, his greatest joy in life was good food. Rest in eternal peace, grandpa

I strongly urge you to look into a different method, or in the least, do more research on this one before committing.

 

[Namelesa]

Just wondering to make this method hypothetically be more successful, could you lock yourself in your own room/house with no way to exit it and without any food so that you literally can't access any food? Obviously still going to be very long and painful but if you are unable to back out of it then won't there be a higher chance of success?

I don't LMFAO FUCKK!!!!!! SN it is.

If you can access SN, definitely go for that instead. Much less painful and more quick.

 

[livingonlytodie]

This will 100% not be a peaceful way to die. Having your organs slowly fail while continuing to live is a horrible existence. And it's a slow death.

My grandfather slowly starved to death due to stomach cancer and while he laid in bed, skin and bones, he said it was the worst pain he'd ever experienced. It's ironic because before he was sick, his greatest joy in life was good food. Rest in eternal peace, grandpa

I strongly urge you to look into a different method, or in the least, do more research on this one before committing.

I made such a mistake when I abandoned my bf. He really understood me & I wish we could have died together but because of my bpd I kept pushing his ass away & now he has a girlfriend & honestly I deserve that. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather honestly. Thank you so much for your helpful advice. I'll be sure to look into a different method.

Just wondering to make this method hypothetically be more successful, could you lock yourself in your own room/house with no way to exit it and without any food so that you literally can't access any food? Obviously still going to be very long and painful but if you are unable to back out of it then won't there be a higher chance of success?


If you can access SN, definitely go for that. Much less painful and more quick.

Lamy's sacred sleep had some. I wonder if me & him will ever speak to each other again. Life seemed so happy when it was me & him. DAMN IT WHY DID I DO THAT

Just wondering to make this method hypothetically be more successful, could you lock yourself in your own room/house with no way to exit it and without any food so that you literally can't access any food? Obviously still going to be very long and painful but if you are unable to back out of it then won't there be a higher chance of success?


If you can access SN, definitely go for that instead. Much less painful and more quick.

My family is gonna make me get an Apartment & from there I'll just get a work from home job & start starving. But I think you're right. It'll take too long & be too drawn out.

 

[Namelesa]

I made such a mistake when I abandoned my bf. He really understood me & I wish we could have died together but because of my bpd I kept pushing his ass away & now he has a girlfriend & honestly I deserve that. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather honestly. Thank you so much for your helpful advice. I'll be sure to look into a different method.

BPD is truly hell to live with I am sorry :< The fight between being scared of human connection and desiring it is torturous.

 

[livingonlytodie]

BPD is truly hell to live with I am sorry :< The fight between being scared of human connection and desiring it is torturous.

He is never gonna talk to me again LMFAO! I was thinking about him earlier today & everything while I was at the mental hospital.

 

[dospi1]

Please please please think about this, hardly anyone ever have ever succesfully starved himself you will most probably fail after a lot lot of pain, everytime ive heard of someone trying this they reapear a couple of days or weeks later telling they failed and how painfull it was, before your counsiousness is SI and SI literally evolved to avoid you starve yourself, your body is hard coded to do anything in its power to stop it.

 

[livingonlytodie]

He is never gonna talk to me again LMFAO! I was thinking about him earlier today & everything while I was at the mental hospital.

The only reason I left was because we had SO much fun playing Minecraft that day & once I asked him if he still wanted to die he said NO. That's when I realized I was only gonna drag him down FURTHER I didn't leave him because I hate Lamy. I left Lamy because he's so uncertain on whether or not he wants to die. I'd hate to rip away his one chance at a happy life and take him away from his mother.Sorry I know you definitely didn't ask me about any of that but I just wanted to say that

The only reason I left was because we had SO much fun playing Minecraft that day & once I asked him if he still wanted to die he said NO. That's when I realized I was only gonna drag him down FURTHER I didn't leave him because I hate Lamy. I left Lamy because he's so uncertain on whether or not he wants to die. I'd hate to rip away his one chance at a happy life and take him away from his mother.Sorry I know you definitely didn't ask me about any of that but I just wanted to say that

The moment has probably passed & ik he's over me now for sure. I'm thankful he still gave me my final method. SN. Anorexia is too flimsy and painful

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

For all intents and purposes starvation is not a real method.

Starvation alone takes an extremely long time to be lethal. You can decrease the time until death significantly by also cutting out all fluid intake.
Both of these together is called VSED. I have personally documented my last attempt with this method and unless you are already terminally ill, it's not a viable method.

It is a very slow process and while going without food is relatively easy, going without both and being dehydrated becomes very uncomfortable approaching one week in. There are symptoms that I hadn't seen mentioned anywhere else such as an extreme sensitivity in your skin where even the fibers in your clothes feel unbearable.

I strongly suggest looking for another method. This isn't it.

 

[TheSeeker]

Sounds like a long, hellish, painful way to go. Good luck.

 

[maniac116]

You are in for a long, drawn out & painful way to go that in the probably won't be successful

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I did but I think the info about starvation is wrong. A lot of cancer patients die from this right? It can't be too painful. Just falling asleep one day & never getting back up I'd hope

i've had a pretty hardcore eating disorder for 20 years. it's a long painful process as things start to go wrong with your heart, cognitive function and lack of calcium. not a reliable method. the comparison to people with cancer isn't exactly relevant here, as there are many often medical factors that cause deadly weight loss within that. no disrespect meant op.

 

[livingonlytodie]

i've had a pretty hardcore eating disorder for 20 years. it's a long painful process as things start to go wrong with your heart, cognitive function and lack of calcium. not a reliable method. the comparison to people with cancer isn't exactly relevant here, as there are many often medical factors that cause deadly weight loss within that. no disrespect meant op.

None taken. I need to do way more research since im clearly way in over my head. I've settled on sn since it seems to be very peaceful & will get the job done

 

[opheliaoveragain]

None taken. I need to do way more research since im clearly way in over my head. I've settled on sn since it seems to be very peaceful & will get the job done

if you ever wanna chat feel free to reach out. much love.

 

[livingonlytodie]

if you ever wanna chat feel free to reach out. much love.

Thank youuu. I'm so scared to text you bc what if you abandon me blehhhhh

 

[nails]

i don't have much to say because everything has been said already. it seems you've been swayed in your thoughts towards this, which is good. i really hope you don't resort to starving. you deserve a more peaceful end than that. of course, i hope the possibility of recovery is on the table; but it's completely understandable if it's not. you still don't deserve such a painful and prolonged death.

please, feel free to reach out if you need anything. i'll be wishing you the best.
(sorry if i came off kinda stupid, i'm tired.)

 

[livingonlytodie]

i don't have much to say because everything has been said already. it seems you've been swayed in your thoughts towards this, which is good. i really hope you don't resort to starving. you deserve a more peaceful end than that. of course, i hope the possibility of recovery is on the table; but it's completely understandable if it's not. you still don't deserve such a painful and prolonged death.

please, feel free to reach out if you need anything. i'll be wishing you the best.
(sorry if i came off kinda stupid, i'm tired.)

Thank you so much for your kind wishes. SN is gonna be my way out & I'll purchase so much of it , eat so much , drink so many bottles , I'll just sit there dead covered in my own vomit maybe? I have to work out the kinks lol but im so glad im finally leaving here. My account really is documenting my last days alive which is so morbid but I love it. I'll have peace forever.

i don't have much to say because everything has been said already. it seems you've been swayed in your thoughts towards this, which is good. i really hope you don't resort to starving. you deserve a more peaceful end than that. of course, i hope the possibility of recovery is on the table; but it's completely understandable if it's not. you still don't deserve such a painful and prolonged death.

please, feel free to reach out if you need anything. i'll be wishing you the best.
(sorry if i came off kinda stupid, i'm tired.)

He hates my fucking guts & rightfully so. I left him for dead. I deserve the worst.

 

[nails]

Thank you so much for your kind wishes. SN is gonna be my way out & I'll purchase so much of it , eat so much , drink so many bottles , I'll just sit there dead covered in my own vomit maybe? I have to work out the kinks lol but im so glad im finally leaving here. My account really is documenting my last days alive which is so morbid but I love it. I'll have peace forever.

He hates my fucking guts & rightfully so. I left him for dead. I deserve the worst.

yes, please consider everything and think it all out thoroughly. failed sn attempts can also have dire consequences, it sucks.
and i don't think you deserve the worst. i don't have the complete context or story for everything you're talking about, but i doubt you did anything horrible enough to warrant such thinking. it seems that you act with pure intentions, and you feel bad for any hurt you've caused—most people can't even say that much. you deserve to be happy and/or at peace.

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה,
The "cosmic joke" is that what's left of science and the medical industry keeps finding that, to a point, caloric restriction tends to extend life in mammals and people.. although it's a shitty quality of life, perhaps. People can really go on a lot less food than Americans/Europeans might think but hard to say if that's a good life. Met a decent amount of folks from cultures that aren't so food focused who get by on like ≤1000 US calories a day, sometimes a lot less.

There's also something out recently about swallowing supposedly improving mood and brain chemistry, as might explain why I'm always with a tea, coffee, or water to slurp on, though I was once fat and just always being in fluids to ignore hunger was ancient advice for that that still seems reasonable.

Anyway, point being starvation is something anyone can try and probably be lauded for the health of, and until toughing it out for a month or more there's probably a roughly equal chance it's "life extending" for the misery, go figure.

Now in reality, if, say, doing really active factory work, this is kind of stupid and if burning 2000 calories a day it certainly feels healthier to get those in, it goes to muscle etc., but nonetheless the economy is trying to make that a 'sometimes' thing while it does take an entire WWII or more to specifically die of the caloric restriction if your heart doesn't give out, you'll just probably feel like shit.

 

[J&L383]

This will 100% not be a peaceful way to die. Having your organs slowly fail while continuing to live is a horrible existence. And it's a slow death.

My grandfather slowly starved to death due to stomach cancer and while he laid in bed, skin and bones, he said it was the worst pain he'd ever experienced. It's ironic because before he was sick, his greatest joy in life was good food. Rest in eternal peace, grandpa

I strongly urge you to look into a different method, or in the least, do more research on this one before committing.

Thank you for this insight. I'm sorry your grandfather had to die such a painful death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the peace you search for, I also just want to die painlessly in my sleep, it's all I've ever hoped for.

 

[livingonlytodie]

I hope you find the peace you search for, I also just want to die painlessly in my sleep, it's all I've ever hoped for.

Hiiiii funeralcry. I miss seeing youuu I feel the same. However, I don't think I'll get lucky enough to achieve that so now im planning on buying a gun.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Thank youuu. I'm so scared to text you bc what if you abandon me blehhhhh

I can't promise that i'll be able to long respond everyday due to anxiety etc but I promise I wouldn't offer if I thought I would do that. esp w someone here