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Beyond_Repair
Disheartened Ghost
- Oct 27, 2023
- 238
I almost have everything I need, just waiting for the last of my supplies for SN method to arrive in the mail.
I feel like I gave life a good enough shot, I tried living a healthy lifestyle, exercising consistently, eating right, meditating, therapy, different antidepressants. I tried making friends, changing careers, looking at the bright side of things. The pain is always there and I know will always be there. I've accepted that a combination of intergenerational trauma, adverse childhood experiences, and the way my brain works makes it so that I will always be in state of emotional pain and anxiety.
I know some people learn to live with it, but that's just not a life I deem worth living. I'm so tired
I feel like I gave life a good enough shot, I tried living a healthy lifestyle, exercising consistently, eating right, meditating, therapy, different antidepressants. I tried making friends, changing careers, looking at the bright side of things. The pain is always there and I know will always be there. I've accepted that a combination of intergenerational trauma, adverse childhood experiences, and the way my brain works makes it so that I will always be in state of emotional pain and anxiety.
I know some people learn to live with it, but that's just not a life I deem worth living. I'm so tired