Help I've been trying to decide something

[Zilch]

I've been thinking of ctb but every time I think of leaving I think of what It would do to my mom
My brother passed away after a very long struggle with cancer it was very hard on the family and we were all shaken by his death but I've thought of ctb even before his passing but now with him gone and if I were to die my mom would be left with no children it's the only thing stopping me but I really don't have it me to go any longer

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I'm at a similar spot when it comes to my my little sister especially. My parents brought me into this shit and on top of that gave me the genes and environment to be a fucking incel NEET in their basedment, I'm not thrilled about causing them pain but it's completely acceptable. My older sister has her shit more or less together, collateral damage that I'd rather avoid (but I can't). My little sister will be the child running into the drone strike, it's a damn shame so I have half a mind to wait until she has managed to get some more psychological defences up and running.

 

[FuneralCry]

It can be a difficult situation to be in, to end our own pain, it passes it on to other people. I could never stay alive for the sake of others, even know they would be sad. It is hard to deal with, I understand.