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Quosque-Tandem
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- Jun 29, 2024
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Hello everybody
First of all, I hope I won't bother you.
It is the first time for me on this forum and I must tell that whatever I do or not, I am absolutely moved by all the kindness you have with each other.
It is the first time for me, I discover here what it is to speak freely about our own departure.
I don't know where to start as I don't want to bother you.
I will spoil the parts concerning the killing methods for those who do not want to watch it yet.
I'm willing for the next three years to plan my departure and I'm absolutly unable to know how to live painless and peacefully. I am absolutely aware that there are probably not painless ways... I tried to read information especially about flowers and apricot pit that may contain cyanide but I am not sure of the effects.
Why the next three years ? My whole life has been decades of thinking I could be dead whenever but never attented anything. I never felt happy, and always wanted to go away for many specific reasons.
Now, situation in Europ is quite anxiogen and I've always been afraid for more than 20 years of a dystopic society which I think we lead more and more to.
Plus my personal problems I do not want to annoy you with.
I am thiry seven years old, I have what we call the "smiling depression", I can spend days laugh like a child and the very next moment, I feel this emptiness that never comes from nowhere, it always come from a specific topic and I am definitely convinced that the whole of our sufferings comes from our socity. Would we suffer the same if we lived in an equal world ? Not even the perfect world, but at least the most bearable world ?
Issues may come from our personal sufferings, of course, it would be unconscious to not realise it but for me it is usually due to our dying society.
Maybe the questions have been asked several times before and I apologize in advance if it is the case and that I didn't get the opportunity to find what I am looking for among all the topics but here are my questions (feel free to tell me if my post is unappropriated and I will immediately delete it, with all the responsibility I have for everybody's benefit.
Is it possible to leave with natural poison like you can find it with some plants ? I do not have barbiturates. And what I read about apricot pits makes me skeptical...
It is sensitive for me to talk about specifice methods but I am sure that if we all do it hre, it is because we may have all reached the point of no return in anything we have tried to feel, not happy, but more peaceful in this world.
This is a long first topic. I am not used in this forum. I just want you to be extremely kind to my message, as all I need now in my life is a tiny sympathy.
Thank you in advance for your attention, even if you don't answer back. And for those who will, thank you very much.
I am willing to talk to some of you, as best as I can
Yours
Quousque Tandem![Four leaf clover :four_leaf_clover: 🍀](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f340.png)
![Rose :rose: 🌹](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f339.png)
![Tulip :tulip: 🌷](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f337.png)
First of all, I hope I won't bother you.
It is the first time for me on this forum and I must tell that whatever I do or not, I am absolutely moved by all the kindness you have with each other.
It is the first time for me, I discover here what it is to speak freely about our own departure.
I don't know where to start as I don't want to bother you.
I will spoil the parts concerning the killing methods for those who do not want to watch it yet.
I'm willing for the next three years to plan my departure and I'm absolutly unable to know how to live painless and peacefully. I am absolutely aware that there are probably not painless ways... I tried to read information especially about flowers and apricot pit that may contain cyanide but I am not sure of the effects.
Why the next three years ? My whole life has been decades of thinking I could be dead whenever but never attented anything. I never felt happy, and always wanted to go away for many specific reasons.
Now, situation in Europ is quite anxiogen and I've always been afraid for more than 20 years of a dystopic society which I think we lead more and more to.
Plus my personal problems I do not want to annoy you with.
I am thiry seven years old, I have what we call the "smiling depression", I can spend days laugh like a child and the very next moment, I feel this emptiness that never comes from nowhere, it always come from a specific topic and I am definitely convinced that the whole of our sufferings comes from our socity. Would we suffer the same if we lived in an equal world ? Not even the perfect world, but at least the most bearable world ?
Issues may come from our personal sufferings, of course, it would be unconscious to not realise it but for me it is usually due to our dying society.
Maybe the questions have been asked several times before and I apologize in advance if it is the case and that I didn't get the opportunity to find what I am looking for among all the topics but here are my questions (feel free to tell me if my post is unappropriated and I will immediately delete it, with all the responsibility I have for everybody's benefit.
Is it possible to leave with natural poison like you can find it with some plants ? I do not have barbiturates. And what I read about apricot pits makes me skeptical...
It is sensitive for me to talk about specifice methods but I am sure that if we all do it hre, it is because we may have all reached the point of no return in anything we have tried to feel, not happy, but more peaceful in this world.
This is a long first topic. I am not used in this forum. I just want you to be extremely kind to my message, as all I need now in my life is a tiny sympathy.
Thank you in advance for your attention, even if you don't answer back. And for those who will, thank you very much.
I am willing to talk to some of you, as best as I can
Yours
Quousque Tandem
![Four leaf clover :four_leaf_clover: 🍀](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f340.png)
![Rose :rose: 🌹](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f339.png)
![Tulip :tulip: 🌷](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f337.png)