NSFW I’ve been sticking a needle into my testicles

[Proton]

It's not what you're thinking of, I'm sticking a tiny needle used for injecting into my testicles to hopefully kill them. I need them to die off asap, however it is extremely painful.

When the needle pierced through the skin it's already painful, I feel a burning sensation and then into the testicle.

The fact that insurance companies force us to do so much bullshit just to get simple procedures is insanity, and the fact that I have to resort to this. I've stopped since but genuinely this makes my life hell.

 

[maylurker]

why would you hurt your balls?

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

Don't man have some dignity cut instead

 

[Deepdense]

If you get hit in the nuts hard enough you can achieve the same effect. You probably shouldn't do this because if any problems occur you'll need to go to the hospital.

 

[M19R]

If you provide some information about your situation im syre we can help you find better options than this

 

[Proton]

If you provide some information about your situation im syre we can help you find better options than this

I doubt it, which is why I had to resort to this.
1. I don't have much money
2. I can't leave my country rn

3. Now maybe this could help;
I bought hormones for 7 months before going to an endocrinologist. They just ignored what I told them, and got me random shit prescribed and the e obv,
I told them I can't tolerate AA, they said let's see first, the stuff they prescribed me made my shit worse, atleast what I suspect and I went to the pcp and they said stop the anti androgen and see

The issue is when I told my endocrinologist they said I have to live as a woman for a while and be on hormones for a while so I can get an orchiectomy, which imho it is dumb since there's a medical reason for it 1. So I can transition, and 2. So I can transition safely without needing anti androgens. Even then by this point they should've atleast listened to my request and got me scheduled for an orchiectomy, I've also had blood work done at that same hospital so I can easily prove I've been on hrt for a while, they they might deny and say I wasn't on prescribed hormones or some shit

you see what a weird situation I'm in?

If you get hit in the nuts hard enough you can achieve the same effect. You probably shouldn't do this because if any problems occur you'll need to go to the hospital.

I think so, but they'd need to have a reason to remove them so there needs to be enough damage inflicted.

 

[M19R]

I really get where you're at but i think you need to go to a different endo and explain exactly the ways the first one fucked up and the help you need. Idk your exact country but doctors will be able to tell if youve been doing some form of self harm like this and in many countries this can lead to medical disenfranchisement as they can deem you mentally unfit to consent to this type of surgery if they find out. I dont want that to happen to you.

 

[Deepdense]

I doubt it, which is why I had to resort to this.
1. I don't have much money
2. I can't leave my country rn

3. Now maybe this could help;
I bought hormones for 7 months before going to an endocrinologist. They just ignored what I told them, and got me random shit prescribed and the e obv,
I told them I can't tolerate AA, they said let's see first, the stuff they prescribed me made my shit worse, atleast what I suspect and I went to the pcp and they said stop the anti androgen and see

The issue is when I told my endocrinologist they said I have to live as a woman for a while and be on hormones for a while so I can get an orchiectomy, which imho it is dumb since there's a medical reason for it 1. So I can transition, and 2. So I can transition safely without needing anti androgens. Even then by this point they should've atleast listened to my request and got me scheduled for an orchiectomy, I've also had blood work done at that same hospital so I can easily prove I've been on hrt for a while, they they might deny and say I wasn't on prescribed hormones or some shit

you see what a weird situation I'm in?

I think so, but they'd need to have a reason to remove them so there needs to be enough damage inflicted.

You can use a burdizzo to cut the blood vessels. If you use local anesthesia and anti inflammatory medicine it shouldn't be too painful. Another method is elastration. I'm not too familiar with elastration but you could probably find something about it. If worst comes to worst, you could pull a Randy and microwave your balls to get cancer to make removal necessary.

 

[Proton]

I really get where you're at but i think you need to go to a different endo and explain exactly the ways the first one fucked up and the help you need. Idk your exact country but doctors will be able to tell if youve been doing some form of self harm like this and in many countries this can lead to medical disenfranchisement as they can deem you mentally unfit to consent to this type of surgery if they find out. I dont want that to happen to you.

Issue is insurance

 

[DepressedSimp]

It's not what you're thinking of, I'm sticking a tiny needle used for injecting into my testicles to hopefully kill them. I need them to die off asap, however it is extremely painful.

When the needle pierced through the skin it's already painful, I feel a burning sensation and then into the testicle.

The fact that insurance companies force us to do so much bullshit just to get simple procedures is insanity, and the fact that I have to resort to this. I've stopped since but genuinely this makes my life hell.

Dude... I don't mean to judge... But this just sounds so unnecessarily painful... I really wouldn't suggest doing that... God that makes me feel uncomfortable... You ain't gotta do all that... Jesus Christ

 

[HangMan123]

It's not what you're thinking of, I'm sticking a tiny needle used for injecting into my testicles to hopefully kill them. I need them to die off asap, however it is extremely painful.

When the needle pierced through the skin it's already painful, I feel a burning sensation and then into the testicle.

The fact that insurance companies force us to do so much bullshit just to get simple procedures is insanity, and the fact that I have to resort to this. I've stopped since but genuinely this makes my life hell.

I literally looked like '' while reading this. Please don't do that. It's making me wince even thinking about it. I know you want them gone, but this is not the way…like…imagine an infection. In the balls. No thank you!
Maybe try going to another endocrinologist? Idk—anything but this.
I hope this is able to be resolved.

 

[SweetMemories]

the things you must do so you don't feel dysphoria anymore are insane. I am with you, i have had only a slight disphoria episode for 2 years but that was even enough. I hope you will find peace in your body.. which clearly isn't visualizing, what you are. I am deeply sorry.

I would go to a psychiatrist and try to reason with him/her/xer that there is no way you can continue living in that body. I don't know, if your country is open about this, but this would be my approach.