Venting I’ve always fantasized about stabbing myself to death.

[AtomicWaffles]

It's really such a shame that it's not a painless or reliable way to ctb, I have always wanted to bleed myself to death after stabbing myself over and over but unfortunately that wouldn't end well and would more than likely get me a one way ticket to the ward if I survive (which I likely would). Such a shame I have always imagined doing it and watching the blood pour out. But Hanging is another option I fantasized about doing and I may actually do since it's reliable and pretty painless I would say. Just need my rope to arrive why must it take so long?

 

[StaringIntoAnAbyss]

painless standing/cutting would definitely be nice.
May I ask if you Are going to do partial or full suspension hanging?

 

[AtomicWaffles]

painless standing/cutting would definitely be nice.
May I ask if you Are going to do partial or full suspension hanging?

Partial, but if that doesn't work out I will do full suspension but also jump to make sure my neck breaks.

 

[lebrodude]

I think that would take a lot of determination to carry out. Not to mention the chances of survival would be pretty high.

 

[Giovannino224]

I have always wanted to bleed myself to death after stabbing myself over and over.

It sounds like masochism to me, just saying.

 

[AtomicWaffles]

I think that would take a lot of determination to carry out. Not to mention the chances of survival would be pretty high.

Unfortunately yea

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I get it. I've fantasized about ctbing in plenty of ways, but I'd say that cutting or stabbing myself to death were the methods I fanatsized about the most. Even now, I still find myself sometimes wanting to cut my wrists despite knowing that I'd probably just end up disabling myself instead of dying.

 

[Minu]

I sometimes get the urge to just stab myself, just to make people take me serious, but i am way to scared to actually do it. So even if it was a reliable way to die i dont think i would be able to do it.

 

[leloyon]

I mean, one hard stab to the jugular or carotid (which is how you check your pulse, you stick your fingers on your carotid) would be hard to revive. I don't get why stabbing is so looked down upon, provided one doesn't just slit their own throat but actually stabs it in the right place, it can be pretty lethal.

 

[tinystomps]

It's really such a shame that it's not a painless or reliable way to ctb, I have always wanted to bleed myself to death after stabbing myself over and over but unfortunately that wouldn't end well and would more than likely get me a one way ticket to the ward if I survive (which I likely would). Such a shame I have always imagined doing it and watching the blood pour out. But Hanging is another option I fantasized about doing and I may actually do since it's reliable and pretty painless I would say. Just need my rope to arrive why must it take so long?

Same. Tbh people claim that they care but when it comes down to it they really don't. When it comes to the actual, raw pain and details they very quickly shy away.

 

[Abyssal]

Normally I read these things and laugh at how horrible a concept it is….but I'm actually very guilty of this. There's a sick pleasure in imagining myself dying a pain, horrific death. No clue why, doesn't benefit anyone in the slightest, but sometimes I want to have a breakdown and slice myself limb by limb lol

 

[AtomicWaffles]

It sounds like masochism to me, just saying.

By definition yep