Its too late for me I finally realise now

[FireFox]

I have so hard to improve my life, really hard but now I realise it's too late for me. I don't belong here in this world all my life I have struggled to fit in and find my true place and be that successful functional adult society expects you to be.

I have failed in everything at 26 years old. Getting fired in February has made me afraid of working another job. I now believe I have pretend to be someone I am not just to fit in with everyone else at work. In my last job even though it was a very toxic workplace being myself at work my work colleagues ignored me a lot and others humiliated me. I always made to feel like an outsider being too different from my work colleagues and at times I even got excluded at work. Since getting fired I feel like I am not good enough to do anything anymore. My confidence is gone completely.

I am still single, all my life i have been rejected, overlooked and treated badly by guys i loved .No man is ever going to love me I truly believe I am now unlovable. My own father before was even born didn't want me then I go through life with guys rejecting me all the time . I now believe was born to be rejected by men the signs were always there. I am the problem.

I plan to kill myself on valentines day at 30 years old because its the worst day ever for me

 

[FuneralCry]

It's awful how other people create so much suffering in this cruel world, but anyway I wish you the best. Existing here certainly is so dreadful and I find it horrible how people suffer all through no fault of their own.