it's terrifying how hard it is to die

[GuppyBoyo]

it's difficult to keep on holding onto the hope of being free one day, to constantly visualize the future when i'm finally free of this agony, and be constantly CONSTANTLY denied that freedom, and having to keep striving further and further to achieve it.

and i know if i gave up right now that mine will be misery for much MUCH longer, that i have to keep striving to finally be free of this agony.

and i have to live with the fact that each time one of us gains their freedom it get much harder for the rest of us to do the same.


i have to live with the fact that one day, it will be rendered practically impossible for any of us to gain our freedom....
i cannot find myself being able to dream of a world where everyone will be free, i cannot find myself being to hope that one day we'll all be free from this suffering...

so long as our oppressors live, it be the mandate of their existence to keep us trapped here. and we can't do anything to stop them, absolutely nothing...

 

[Unlucky777]

I hate it also. I wish dying was just as easy as being fucking born.

 

[U. A.]

Unless you are being monitored and/or physically restrained 24/7, no one is "keeping you trapped" anywhere.

i have to live with the fact that one day, it will be rendered practically impossible for any of us to gain our freedom....

This is especially perplexing.

 

[OOUUneverover]

The human body is disgustingly resilient. The amount of shit you can go through and still function is absurd.

 

[GuppyBoyo]

Unless you are being monitored and/or physically restrained 24/7, no one is "keeping you trapped" anywhere.

This is especially perplexing.

unless you have a self destruct button installed, dying is a means that one does not need to constantly monitor you to take away

and it's wild that you think you aren't being monitored, maybe that's the case up there in heaven where you live, no one keeping track of what you buy or where you go

 

[Gangrel]

i wish there was a button to just turn off but there isn't so we have to destroy the body somehow to die

 

[itwillhappensoon]

I agree , after I failed my attempt my survival instinct is so strong now , I can't put the noose around my neck without getting scared ,also it doesn't help that I'm afraid I'm going to fail , but I know someday I'll be able to succeed and escape this hell forever , hopefully

 

[ICantFixThis]

That's so real, like how do people survive falling out of planes?? Vesna Vulović survived falling over 10km/6mi.

The human body is disgustingly resilient. The amount of shit you can go through and still function is absurd.

 

[cakedog]

perfectly described
it fucking sucks how much suicide is denied to us and we're forced to stay in this jail instead of letting us achieve our freedom
it's a "no paradise for you go back to your battlefield" scenario

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, it truly is the most horrific world where humans want to make others suffer for as much and as long as possible by making peaceful death illegal, all that anti-suicide does is cause way more torture, harm and suffering and I always suffer so much from being imprisoned in this torturous, futile existence, all I want is to be free, the fact that a human cannot just choose to find peace from this existence that was so tragically imposed is criminal to me.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Buy the gun, shoot the gun. Dying is easy for a rational agent [in America]. Why don't I just do it?

I'll play around with partial hanging later but I know I won't die tonight. It's so hard to just make the decision.

I think of death a little differently now. Like I'm returning to the womb of nonexistence I "lived" in before my birth. I poked my head out, looked around, decided it wasn't for me. Like turning my alarm off and going back to sleep. I've been unconscious before and it was better.

 

[itsgone2]

Buy the gun, shoot the gun. Dying is easy for a rational agent [in America]. Why don't I just do it?

Yes. In the same boat. It's stupid. So easy in theory yet here we are

So much frustration in this thread. It should be legal to be painlessly put to sleep