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AnxiousLlama

UKbro
Apr 29, 2024
59
sometimes I get urges but there's no guns, getting ropes or controlled substances is hard enough and it's extremely hard to beat SI with a knife. Nearest drop is also miles away so you need a car to get there. I had a teacher who CTBed via jumping off a bridge, seems like the easier "impulsive" option, but it needs to be at least a 20 meters drop.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
Impossible to live, harder to die. It's a cruel joke life plays on us. I'm so sorry that you're suffering. I hope that you're able to find your peace one day
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,717
I understand, I find it so cruel and dreadful how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, all I wish for is to cease existing in a guaranteed way and never suffer ever again. I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have that option as I see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, it's horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse torture.
 
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cloudyskye

Student
Nov 11, 2024
161
sometimes I get urges but there's no guns, getting ropes or controlled substances is hard enough and it's extremely hard to beat SI with a knife. Nearest drop is also miles away so you need a car to get there. I had a teacher who CTBed via jumping off a bridge, seems like the easier "impulsive" option, but it needs to be at least a 20 meters drop.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope this doesn't sound unfeeling. Why is it hard to get a rope?
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
I know just how you feel, it's a bugger. Also in the UK, I'm not sure why you're having difficulty obtaining a rope unless you have challenging personal circumstances.
 
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sevennn

sevennn

Warlock
Sep 11, 2024
701
they most likely meant it's hard to get a rope because of depression makes it hard to do anything. that's all. sigh
 
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End_it_all

End_it_all

I have to return some video tapes
Jun 29, 2019
70
I bought a good rope from Amazon. Not hard. A lot of people need rope.
 
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lonergirl_26

Student
Sep 1, 2024
147
I'm having this problem also. It's so frustrating.
 
roadkill111

roadkill111

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
259
sometimes I get urges but there's no guns, getting ropes or controlled substances is hard enough and it's extremely hard to beat SI with a knife. Nearest drop is also miles away so you need a car to get there. I had a teacher who CTBed via jumping off a bridge, seems like the easier "impulsive" option, but it needs to be at least a 20 meters drop.
Yeah jumping is great, especially
In the UK
 
Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Paragon
Sep 21, 2022
961
Yep, I can get a rope but going through with it is another story and I'm anxious if it fails. I would rather use a gun or other substances but those are unavailable like you said.
 
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ghost-shock

ghost-shock

Member
Oct 21, 2024
67
I was able to get a rope online. Im suprised your having difficulty obtaining one.
 

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