physai
Member
- Dec 1, 2024
- 28
I'm having a rough month, a lot of will towards CTB, even planning on it, thinking about how unfair life is in general. I couldn't contact my friends to talk about it, it seemed like I was ignored or just didn't know how to express the urgency. After crying to sleep for the entire week and trying to keep my mind off things today some small things changed my mood completely. I was beaten up and exhausted emotionally but I had to go to the vet cause my cat needed her yearly vaccination. I did it and after I was ready to go the lady at the reception (which is close to my age) started chatting with me about the cats ( they have 3 cats in the clinic). I was petting the cats and talking about my own cat too. We chatted for about 40 minutes or more only about cats. It was nice and fun and she was really sweet and when I was going she wished me a great week and holidays. I got back home, took a bath and had a nice meal. I hopped in my friends voice chat and I kinda started to notice they were noticing me. It feels like my mind was clouded but suddenly a silly conversation about cats made everything clearer. I feel so much better now. I feel grateful it happened. Small kindness really really matter.