I've realised that I get hardly any joy out of life anymore. More than that every second of existence is anguish. My life just feels like I'm some machine that only has sentience so it can best make money for other people, and suffer.
I'd probably feel better about it if I could at least talk honestly to someone, but say the wrong words and suddenly your situation is made a thousand times worse in the name of safety.
I'd probably feel better if the option to die with medical assistance was available to me. That if it got too bad I could leave at any time. But that's not a thing.
As it is most of my days are empty of anything happy. I've been promised solutions for years that have never come.
Society wants me to just accept living in suffering, as if there's no alternative. I'm too young they'd say. She hasn't considered all her options. But well, maybe i don't want to give it another decade of pain, in some vague hope that it might get better.
I don't know what cruel god drew my soul up into this hell but please can the pain just end. I hope I get the strength to do that myself soon.
I'd probably feel better about it if I could at least talk honestly to someone, but say the wrong words and suddenly your situation is made a thousand times worse in the name of safety.
I'd probably feel better if the option to die with medical assistance was available to me. That if it got too bad I could leave at any time. But that's not a thing.
As it is most of my days are empty of anything happy. I've been promised solutions for years that have never come.
Society wants me to just accept living in suffering, as if there's no alternative. I'm too young they'd say. She hasn't considered all her options. But well, maybe i don't want to give it another decade of pain, in some vague hope that it might get better.
I don't know what cruel god drew my soul up into this hell but please can the pain just end. I hope I get the strength to do that myself soon.
