Venting It’s really scary dying young

[DreamEnd]

Idk about you guys but a few years ago I didn't even think of death. But here I am know and what the fuck? All life ahead of me and now cut so short. I can't comprehend it it's too much. But it's the only way unfortunately.barely 27 club.

 

[Death is my goal]

it's not scary it's the exact opposite, nothing more wonderful than dying in an early age.

 

[sserafim]

it's not scary it's the exact opposite, nothing more wonderful than dying in an early age.

Same. I never wanted to live out a full life anyways. I've always felt like I was meant to die young. I think that I've even lived too long

 

[strangelife]

All normal people are afraid of death, but if life is unbearable due to physical or mental suffering, then the fear disappears. I used to be very afraid of death, but now if my heart stops, I will feel relieved

 

[DreamEnd]

it's not scary it's the exact opposite, nothing more wonderful than dying in an early age.

Not to me. I haven't really lived at all. If I accomplished at least something I'd be much happier to go.

 

[sserafim]

Not to me. I haven't really lived at all. If I accomplished at least something I'd be much happier to go.

Did you finish college/university? That's an accomplishment

 

[DreamEnd]

Did you finish college/university? That's an accomplishment

I did. Well kind of yes.

 

[grungy自殺]

It's pretty reliving for me to be honest (to die at a young age)

Same. I never wanted to live out a full life anyways. I've always felt like I was meant to die young. I think that I've even lived too long

I did wish at some point that if i died because of external circumstances (like being murdered by someone else or death by accident or natural disaster) i would have a huge dedication and remembrance by many people as i've contributed alot to make a huge difference in life and people's life

But i never had accomplished anything.. anything that would mean something for people to remember me for.

I rather just only died by suicide than to died by anything beyond my control

 

[Worndown]

It should be equally scary, young or old. With old, you are more tired and weary. The "to hell with it" attitude is easier to generate.

 

[Z-A]

All normal people are afraid of death, but if life is unbearable due to physical or mental suffering, then the fear disappears. I used to be very afraid of death, but now if my heart stops, I will feel relieved

I've noticed most of my fears and worries go away after I stopped caring about this life, it's like desiring death makes you more fearless. People just think you've changed but they don't realise what caused the change. It's funny how wanting to die makes you stronger, as if it's a right thing to do lol.

 

[willitpass]

What's causing death to be your only choice? It sounds like you still have a strong desire for life.

 

[DreamEnd]

What's causing death to be your only choice? It sounds like you still have a strong desire for life.

I do but I have treatment resistant mental illness I have tried everything I could and nothing works:(

 

[willitpass]

I do but I have treatment resistant mental illness I have tried everything I could and nothing works:(

Me too. Treatment resistant mental illness is hell. I lost my desire to live years ago though. I wish there was more for you to try. It seems like you're not ready to go. I hope you find peace somehow.

 

[rowboat]

Same. I never wanted to live out a full life anyways. I've always felt like I was meant to die young. I think that I've even lived too long

I agree with that wholeheartedly, to the point where I feel as though I'm meant to die young. I've carried this mindset for a while, since my first suicide attempt at 15. I'm 19 now, and have just about fucking had it with existence.

 

[Sageiois]

I mean im 22 and my CTB date is this week. Not scared or frightened. Just glad i wont go through more pain caused by living a full life

 

[sserafim]

I agree with that wholeheartedly, to the point where I feel as though I'm meant to die young. I've carried this mindset for a while, since my first suicide attempt at 15. I'm 19 now, and have just about fucking had it with existence.

I never wanted to live past 18, but I'm 23 now. I've always felt like I was destined to die young and that I wasn't meant to live out a full life. I've always felt like it was meant to be cut short

 

[Hotsackage]

No one escapes heat death, enjoy it while it lasts, normies I mean

 

[Camper]

I do but I have treatment resistant mental illness I have tried everything I could and nothing works:(

Treatment resistant depression is usually caused by trauma (especially "adverse childhood experiences"/ACEs) and/or excruciating circumstances (like poverty, chronic stress, etc.). I used to think my depression was caused by a chemical imbalance, until I realized I had dealt with a lifetime of emotional abuse and gaslighting from both my parents and health care professionals. I also had early exposure to financial strain and physical abuse.

I'm doing better now that I see my trauma for what it is. And I've decided to focus on concrete goals over abstract ideas like happiness.

 

[teajay1]

i felt this way when i was a whole lot younger i was scared that i wanted to die so young. but i think ive just come to accept that i probably won't live a long life and i'll succumb to my depression eventually