Venting Its over soon and i am excited

[absolute failure]

Maybe this is kind of sick, but i am really looking forward to ctb soon. I feel so shallow, not even like a human being, and the fassade I put up is always tested but it always keeps me out of trouble. I cannot wait for my eternal sleep, am I being an asshole for that? I certainly think that what I will do is awful and no one should ever harm themselves, but i lost my moral. I deserve to be in a ward, yet i am out... ironic

 

[hurb]

What method are u going with

 

[absolute failure]

KN

 

[dewdfish]

I feel that. It makes me excited that I am going to end everything soon. Honestly, just waiting for that day when I'll post a goodbye thread and interact with everyone before I pass successfully. I've been enjoying my days as much as I can - partying, drinking, doing drugs, etc - and when the day comes I can finally find the peace I've been looking for

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to be gone, I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[kufajoy]

Did you find sn or kn you were looking for ?

 

[absolute failure]

Did you find sn or kn you were looking for ?

Yes.

 

[kufajoy]

Yes.

Lets see who catch the bus first

 

[absolute failure]

Lets see who catch the bus first

Hahahah