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inmyhead

Student
May 21, 2023
168
My turn to go. I have cleaned the house so my mum doesn't feel she needs to in the immediate aftermath. I'm going to be alone for approximately the next 6 hours.

I'm doing full suspension over a door. I've got some sedatives as well to help me pass out (but I don't think I'll need it). A mixture of quetiapine, mirtazipine, diazepam, and zopiclone.

Letters are all written to everyone that matters.

The only thing that's upsetting me is that my mam will be the one to find me. I'm considering putting a note on the door to tell her not to come in and to just call the police. But I don't think she would listen to it anyway. Thoughts on this?

I'm going for a last bath before I do it, so will be around for an hour or so.

Mods if I don't post on this thread saying I chickened out or failed within a week you have permission to delete my account.
 
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HitBlackVein

HitBlackVein

Member
Apr 12, 2023
44
My turn to go. I have cleaned the house so my mum doesn't feel she needs to in the immediate aftermath. I'm going to be alone for approximately the next 6 hours.

I'm doing full suspension over a door. I've got some sedatives as well to help me pass out (but I don't think I'll need it). A mixture of quetiapine, mirtazipine, diazepam, and zopiclone.

Letters are all written to everyone that matters.

The only thing that's upsetting me is that my mam will be the one to find me. I'm considering putting a note on the door to tell her not to come in and to just call the police. But I don't think she would listen to it anyway. Thoughts on this?

I'm going for a last bath before I do it, so will be around for an hour or so.

Mods if I don't post on this thread saying I chickened out or failed within a week you have permission to delete my account.
I hope you will find peace no matter if you decide to stay alive or not
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,209
I wish you peaceful journey! May you find freedom & peace on the other side!
 
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lessthanzero

Member
Jun 5, 2023
46
Hey,
I am going to do the same thing and will also leave a note at the door.
I wish u peace <3
 
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love_peep

Specialist
May 26, 2023
313
Wish you good luck bro
 
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MyLifeisHell

MyLifeisHell

I'm in hell
Jul 23, 2022
4,724
The only thing that's upsetting me is that my mam will be the one to find me. I'm considering putting a note on the door to tell her not to come in and to just call the police. But I don't think she would listen to it anyway. Thoughts on this?
Yes you should. By doing so you have done your bit to give proper warning.

This method takes significant determination...you're not a coward if it proves to be too much.
 
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flesh object

Bread
Feb 15, 2023
42
I wish you peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,862
Those who attempt this method certainly are so courageous, I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.
 
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Letgo

Specialist
Apr 1, 2023
319
I am sorry it all has come down to this. Wish you peace and rest. Thinking of you.
 
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inmyhead

Student
May 21, 2023
168
I ended up not doing it today. My mum is going out in around 8 hours though and I am going to attempt it then. It sounds silly but I didn't feel in the right frame of mind, I was too sleepy and wired.

Thanks for everyone's well wishes though!
 
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Letgo

Specialist
Apr 1, 2023
319
whatever is good for you it's the best. Thinking of you.
 
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leavingsoon99

I'm at peace... Finally.
Mar 16, 2023
721
My turn to go. I have cleaned the house so my mum doesn't feel she needs to in the immediate aftermath. I'm going to be alone for approximately the next 6 hours.

I'm doing full suspension over a door. I've got some sedatives as well to help me pass out (but I don't think I'll need it). A mixture of quetiapine, mirtazipine, diazepam, and zopiclone.

Letters are all written to everyone that matters.

The only thing that's upsetting me is that my mam will be the one to find me. I'm considering putting a note on the door to tell her not to come in and to just call the police. But I don't think she would listen to it anyway. Thoughts on this?

I'm going for a last bath before I do it, so will be around for an hour or so.

Mods if I don't post on this thread saying I chickened out or failed within a week you have permission to delete my account.
If this is seriously your last time on, good luck and may you find the peace that you seek.
 
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WaffleWoman

WaffleWoman

Ready to sleep
May 16, 2023
179
I ended up not doing it today. My mum is going out in around 8 hours though and I am going to attempt it then. It sounds silly but I didn't feel in the right frame of mind, I was too sleepy and wired.

Thanks for everyone's well wishes though!
I wish you peace when you decide whats the right time
 
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NoOneLovesMiMi

NoOneLovesMiMi

Just Me
May 27, 2023
114
My turn to go. I have cleaned the house so my mum doesn't feel she needs to in the immediate aftermath. I'm going to be alone for approximately the next 6 hours.

I'm doing full suspension over a door. I've got some sedatives as well to help me pass out (but I don't think I'll need it). A mixture of quetiapine, mirtazipine, diazepam, and zopiclone.

Letters are all written to everyone that matters.

The only thing that's upsetting me is that my mam will be the one to find me. I'm considering putting a note on the door to tell her not to come in and to just call the police. But I don't think she would listen to it anyway. Thoughts on this?

I'm going for a last bath before I do it, so will be around for an hour or so.

Mods if I don't post on this thread saying I chickened out or failed within a week you have permission to delete my account.
Grant her a peaceful painless quick passing Love and light
 
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blacktulip44

blacktulip44

lost and broken
Jun 5, 2023
34
I ended up not doing it today. My mum is going out in around 8 hours though and I am going to attempt it then. It sounds silly but I didn't feel in the right frame of mind, I was too sleepy and wired.

Thanks for everyone's well wishes though!
i hope you find the peace you're looking for, no matter what you decide. good luck, either in going through with this or staying alive. it takes a lot of guts to do both. ♡
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,321
Good luck , i hope you escape peacefully.
 
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Readytogo246

Experienced
Jun 4, 2023
205
I hope you get clarity with your decision. Blesssings with all this.
 
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inmyhead

Student
May 21, 2023
168
Good luck , i hope you escape peacefully.
Thank you. I hope so too
I hope you get clarity with your decision. Blesssings with all this.
Thank you. I do think I need to just do it today. I have everything ready.
i hope you find the peace you're looking for, no matter what you decide. good luck, either in going through with this or staying alive. it takes a lot of guts to do both. ♡
I know, and I hate that it's such a difficult decision either way!
 
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Crono

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Jun 1, 2023
314
My method is also hanging, but I still need to face SI.

I wish you peace and good luck in whatever happens.
 
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heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
1,716
Good luck and god speed <3
 
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inmyhead

Student
May 21, 2023
168
So today came and went and I have decided to try living instead. I don't know how long this will last, but I am going to start working towards my recovery now. Thank you for all the support I have received so far on this forum and I will still be around.
 
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Letgo

Specialist
Apr 1, 2023
319
Good luck with your recovery. Wish you the best!
 
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blacktulip44

blacktulip44

lost and broken
Jun 5, 2023
34
best of luck on recovering, you deserve happiness and release.
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,321
Good luck on your recovery.
 
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heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
1,716
So today came and went and I have decided to try living instead. I don't know how long this will last, but I am going to start working towards my recovery now. Thank you for all the support I have received so far on this forum and I will still be around.
Good luck on your recovery <3
 
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