MrBlue
Arcanist
- Jul 1, 2020
- 416
I was stopped jumping off a bridge in March this year and gave myself 6 months to achieve something of note after I graduated uni. It didn't have to be anything major, if I'd made one friend online, or improved my fitness noticably, or got a job...any one thing to make me feel like I was getting SOMEWHERE with my life. But 6 months is coming up in a couple of days and I've achieved jack shit. I'm still friendless, still jobless, still never been in a relationship, still disgusting to look at and pathetic in every aspect of my life. I'm not depressed, just realistic in how useless and shitty I am, and by extension my quality of life is/will be. The only reason I'm still around is that my methods available are'nt 100%, and part of me knows I deserve feeling like shit because of how pathetic I am.