It's late and I'm pondering

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Today I saw my DR and he prescribed clonazepam and Bupropion. I've taken the clonazepam so far and it knocked me out but the pain stayed.... I am awake at almost 6AM in agony.

Couldn't find my ps4 controller to just settle and watch something and just searching for it had me in tears. I am in so much pain I cannot even describe it. April cannot come soon enough. The temptations to say fuck it and ctb sooner are lingering and as I've mentioned before I'd rather wait.

But my condition is worsening. I woke up with several bruises on my right leg and this has been happening for years now. The bruises vary in size and severity. I once had one on my wrist for over a year.. All I want is for this pain to end. I don't know how much longer I can hold on.

If things get very bad, I will post a goodbye, but if not it will come April anyway. The 26th to be exact where I will ingest SN in one of my favourite shot glasses and listen to a song or watch a movie...

Hugs to my SS family. x

(Please excuse typos, I use my phone).

 

[hadenoughthanks]

hugs <3 I'm so sorry to hear about your pain.

 

[IsadoraBeauxdraps]

I'm sorry you're in such a pain. What is your disease ?
I know what it is to suffer everydays from pain with few hope to get better.
4 years for me.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

hugs <3 I'm so sorry to hear about your pain.

Thank you, hon. x

I'm sorry you're in such a pain. What is your disease ?
I know what it is to suffer everydays from pain with few hope to get better.
4 years for me.

I suffer from severe fibromyalgia and diabetic neuropathy. Hugs x

 

[letmeseethedeath]

i'm sending so many lonely hugs sweety please feel free to text me, i'll stay with you hoping your pain won't be with you anymore so we can do that game party all together

 

[Haku]

Your story hurts me dearly, you may not know it, but I follow your posts quite a bit, and I'm not going to lie, but I shed a couple tears for you, In some ways, you remind me alot of myself, but your condition is way harsher. I wish I could take your pain and add it to my own, unfortunately, I dont have that power, sorry, your character is someone that should have all the happiness this world has to offer, but for some reason, the Universe doesn't want you to be happy, and I could relate. You will always be on my mind, and I will try to be there for you as mutch as possible, and I'm sorry if I become and annoyance, but its because I care, I hope to be your friend until the very end, that is the roll that I am always given, and i shall play it out, until someone releases me from it. I wish you nothing but love and peace, and I hope to see you on the other side, I'll be waiting my friend

 

[sleepy dog]

Today I saw my DR and he prescribed clonazepam and Bupropion. I've taken the clonazepam so far and it knocked me out but the pain stayed.... I am awake at almost 6AM in agony.

Couldn't find my ps4 controller to just settle and watch something and just searching for it had me in tears. I am in so much pain I cannot even describe it. April cannot come soon enough. The temptations to say fuck it and ctb sooner are lingering and as I've mentioned before I'd rather wait.

But my condition is worsening. I woke up with several bruises on my right leg and this has been happening for years now. The bruises vary in size and severity. I once had one on my wrist for over a year.. All I want is for this pain to end. I don't know how much longer I can hold on.

If things get very bad, I will post a goodbye, but if not it will come April anyway. The 26th to be exact where I will ingest SN in one of my favourite shot glasses and listen to a song or watch a movie...

Hugs to my SS family. x

(Please excuse typos, I use my phone).

What is the importance of April 26?

 

[Avery Jordan]

Sounds terrible. Hope you find peace

 

[Jean4]

My birthday is on April 27. I wonder if I will still be here by then.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

What is the importance of April 26?

It's just away from special holidays and birthdays that would just cause more stress for everyone.