vultureilse
ready to go, just waiting for the right time!
- Dec 31, 2022
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my self hatred is so deeply ingrained in me because since i was a kid ive been taught that im a worthless subhuman undeserving of love and basic human respect by everyone around me. half of my suffering has been caused by people who i was supposed to trust and rely on, who were supposed to love and take care of me, when i was a kid too weak to be able to defend myself in any way
maybe if i was born different i could live a normal life. i dont know what was wrong with me, i dont know what made me deserve all of this, but if everybody thinks this way then i mustve been the problem. and even if i didnt deserve all that suffering before, i certainly do now, ive become an awful person
i dont like other people but i hate myself the most. i think it was all my fault from the beginning. i dont understand how people can hurt others like this
maybe if i was born different i could live a normal life. i dont know what was wrong with me, i dont know what made me deserve all of this, but if everybody thinks this way then i mustve been the problem. and even if i didnt deserve all that suffering before, i certainly do now, ive become an awful person
i dont like other people but i hate myself the most. i think it was all my fault from the beginning. i dont understand how people can hurt others like this