Discussion It's easier for me to fall asleep after an attempt because I feel like I deserve some rest.

[NaughtyGirl]

I attempted on two different occasions late at night and failed, first time because I figured out my setup wasn't good enough and second time because I couldn't force myself to do it. After both attempts falling asleep felt special. It was as if I survived an accident or an assault and had all the right in the world to just rest peacefully to recover. I wish I could extract that feeling and experience it every time I go to sleep.

Waking up after attempting or deeply contemplating and researching suicide also feels different. The previous day feels almost like a part of a bad dream.

What's your experience?

 

[FuneralCry]

I did not get very far in my attempt last year, as I was not prepared properly and I could not bring myself to do it anyway. I was serious about leaving. Exiting this world is difficult and if it was easier I would already be gone. I tried to exit at a moment of desperation and the whole experience was very exhausting. I understand what you mean about it feeling like a bad dream. Hopefully I can eventually go through with it.