dazednconfused
could i be an angel?
- Oct 8, 2024
- 89
...because it feels like theyre dumbing down my struggles and feelings. do people really think everything is so shallow and simple? every heartbreak represents something more, a million things. lol please, i was researching ways to die when we were together, not because of him, things were fine. i just couldnt stand the fact i had good things and still was overcome with the feeling of sorrow and a desire to end my life.
this was just a cherry on top lol.
not from anyone here jsyk, a tarot reader lol
what they said + my response, in case anyone resonates with either side.
i can so easily have things in the palm of my hand, and the way the world works, it can be taken away much easier
to deal with that my whole life, well im sorry but that just sounds miserable. work hard, get something, lose it, work harder, just for a few moments of good and satisfaction, fall again
this is life
yes
and i accept that it is
but thats why id rather not lol..
im a coward and im lazy and do not want to struggle
especially since its so intense
it will only get more intense as i grow
and i have more responsibility
i'm not looking to my future for solace because there is no solace in a future that isnt promised to you
all i have now is the present
thats all thats real
nd so i can pray
but i cant change the minute to minute moment to moment facts
whatever could be out there for me, none of that is promised
i can only reliably judge based on the present.
this was just a cherry on top lol.
not from anyone here jsyk, a tarot reader lol
what they said + my response, in case anyone resonates with either side.
hes a part of the reason, but its not just him. its what it all represents and my whole life though short, of highs and lows. of people breaking my trust. of getting hurt, i know this is the most of the world. heartbreak is not forever, but the pain that comes back and goes and comes back is. always has been since i was a little kidI feel that's always possible, but he's not the only guy out there for you. Even though it hurts now, heartbreak isn't a forever thing and if you are going to kill yourself, a man you have not met yet should not be one of those reasons. I apologize of this is blunt. It's not to be mean.
i can so easily have things in the palm of my hand, and the way the world works, it can be taken away much easier
to deal with that my whole life, well im sorry but that just sounds miserable. work hard, get something, lose it, work harder, just for a few moments of good and satisfaction, fall again
this is life
yes
and i accept that it is
but thats why id rather not lol..
im a coward and im lazy and do not want to struggle
especially since its so intense
it will only get more intense as i grow
and i have more responsibility
i'm not looking to my future for solace because there is no solace in a future that isnt promised to you
all i have now is the present
thats all thats real
nd so i can pray
but i cant change the minute to minute moment to moment facts
whatever could be out there for me, none of that is promised
i can only reliably judge based on the present.