My finasteride syndrome is substantially worse than it was a year ago. My dick is deteriorating, it's not my imagination. It's just going to keep getting worse and worse. I have heard the horror stories from other suffereres and I'm going to be one of the unlucky ones too. All the signs point to it. Viagra doesn't work any more, it's gotten so bad. I am never going to be able to sustain an erection again, and I am never going to be in a relationship because of it.
Technically there is a shitty solution, which is spend €20000 every five years on a new penis implant. But I have no proper career or savings. And more importantly, I am just not mentally ready for the horror of realising that I ruined my penis because of insecurity about my fucking hair loss. Finasteride has been the most expensive mistake I have ever made. And I will never be in a healthy relationship because of it.
I am just so tired of living without hope. So tired of limping into work everyday. I just can't do this any more. I am utterly alone in dealing with this like few people ever really are in life. Genuinely, no one understands what I am going through. I don't know if there will even be enough of me once I limp out the other side to even love anyone. I am never going to be loved because of this useless piece of fucking meat between my legs. I hate my family for not understanding. I hate my friends for finding love and leaving me behind. I hate myself for ruining my life.
I am not going to make it. I am just not strong enough. I am like the embers left in a dying fire, subsisting on the memory of heat. There isn't going to be any new heat or life in my life ever again. It's only a matter of time before I run out or road. All I am doing now is making myself miserable and making the people who care about me miserable
Technically there is a shitty solution, which is spend €20000 every five years on a new penis implant. But I have no proper career or savings. And more importantly, I am just not mentally ready for the horror of realising that I ruined my penis because of insecurity about my fucking hair loss. Finasteride has been the most expensive mistake I have ever made. And I will never be in a healthy relationship because of it.
I am just so tired of living without hope. So tired of limping into work everyday. I just can't do this any more. I am utterly alone in dealing with this like few people ever really are in life. Genuinely, no one understands what I am going through. I don't know if there will even be enough of me once I limp out the other side to even love anyone. I am never going to be loved because of this useless piece of fucking meat between my legs. I hate my family for not understanding. I hate my friends for finding love and leaving me behind. I hate myself for ruining my life.
I am not going to make it. I am just not strong enough. I am like the embers left in a dying fire, subsisting on the memory of heat. There isn't going to be any new heat or life in my life ever again. It's only a matter of time before I run out or road. All I am doing now is making myself miserable and making the people who care about me miserable
