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lonerclown666
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- Dec 1, 2020
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i was scared before but not anymore i feel i can do everything leaving the pain and suffering is the best experience
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For all intents & purposes, SI = fear of deathI am certainly not scared of death and I find it to be comforting. There will be no more suffering. It is the end of everything. Life is the scary thing. However I wish it was easier to leave this world, survival instinct and fear of failure hold me back.
Fear of dying seems more fitting. Death is only an idea, one that we don't understand at all, one that might be understood as the opposite of being, but, if we percieve being as a kind of constant dying, as many of us do, death might be understood as the opposite of dying. Then we may find comfort in the idea of not being, because we see it as the resolution of the dying process.For all intents & purposes, SI = fear of death
I agree, I wrote a rant about dying & death not being the same thing once.Fear of dying seems more fitting.
That's exactly it for me. Scared to die, but knowing an exit is nearby is comforting. Death is the only promise in life. I'm just so exhausted, so tired of being a fundamentally broken person that pills/therapy/hobbies/love can't fix.I am scared to die but it's also a beautiful thing to be reassured that if life becomes so unbearable, there is always a way out— I.e) death. I feel as if a lot of us don't want to actually die, but rather have a better life. It's come to the point where I'm personally ready to give up. I'm getting older and going to lose my good looks someday, then no one will want me
If worse comes to worse, jumping off a bridge can be an easy exit. I've highly considered this method but I hope I'd have the guts to do it. I was thinking maybe have one last "hoorah" where I get high in molly (which makes you feel fearless/invincible when on it), then jump off a bridge. A scary thought but might do it someday if I had a partner to assist...That's exactly it for me. Scared to die, but knowing an exit is nearby is comforting. Death is the only promise in life. I'm just so exhausted, so tired of being a fundamentally broken person that pills/therapy/hobbies/love can't fix.
Molly is my all time favorite drug (next to acid, mescaline and shrooms) because you're absolutely right, you feel like superman while on it. To me, it's like 8 hours of non-consentual happiness, my stupid brain has no choice but to feel and think good thoughts.If worse comes to worse, jumping off a bridge can be an easy exit. I've highly considered this method but I hope I'd have the guts to do it. I was thinking maybe have one last "hoorah" where I get high in molly (which makes you feel fearless/invincible when on it), then jump off a bridge. A scary thought but might do it someday if I had a partner to assist...
Hmm! Where are you from? Can you travel?Molly is my all time favorite drug (next to acid, mescaline and shrooms) because you're absolutely right, you feel like superman while on it. To me, it's like 8 hours of non-consentual happiness, my stupid brain has no choice but to feel and think good thoughts.
If I were able to, I'd be happy to assist. Having someone you trust not to call the cops or family is just as important as one who also won't judge and respects your decision. A true friend who understands that your wish is to end your life on your own terms with dignity will help to ensure you do just that.