sivvie
Wanderer
- Aug 23, 2021
- 84
I apologize if this becomes a cynical and pessimistic rant. I just think about this a lot; how even if I managed to escape the clutches of my abusive family, the world wouldn't become a better place. I do admit things are better now than they were, say, a hundred years ago. But, I still feel like it isn't good enough.
It's extremely difficult, almost impossible, to leave (I won't elaborate much for privacy or safety reasons) but I think even if I did leave, I wouldn't want to live in this world as it is right now. So many people are hateful and evil, have no empathy or any kind of compassion and understanding for others. Systems are corrupt and being maintained that way by power hungry people. Even nature in itself is a violent and merciless thing. I hate culture, I hate societies, I hate religions. And none of these issues are things that are going to go away any time soon.
I could go on and on and spew all this bullshit about all the terrible things I can list about our current world, but it'll change nothing. I don't want to fight for better, I just want it all to stop. If we never existed, there never would have been injustice and evil. I don't want to live a life I have to keep actively trying to make livable. I don't want to have to look in every haystack for a needle to keep me going. It's not worth it in my eyes.
I hope I can CTB soon. I don't mind if there's a nice afterlife, but I also don't mind the nothingness since I won't even be aware of it
It's extremely difficult, almost impossible, to leave (I won't elaborate much for privacy or safety reasons) but I think even if I did leave, I wouldn't want to live in this world as it is right now. So many people are hateful and evil, have no empathy or any kind of compassion and understanding for others. Systems are corrupt and being maintained that way by power hungry people. Even nature in itself is a violent and merciless thing. I hate culture, I hate societies, I hate religions. And none of these issues are things that are going to go away any time soon.
I could go on and on and spew all this bullshit about all the terrible things I can list about our current world, but it'll change nothing. I don't want to fight for better, I just want it all to stop. If we never existed, there never would have been injustice and evil. I don't want to live a life I have to keep actively trying to make livable. I don't want to have to look in every haystack for a needle to keep me going. It's not worth it in my eyes.
I hope I can CTB soon. I don't mind if there's a nice afterlife, but I also don't mind the nothingness since I won't even be aware of it