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borderline_over

Be still
Oct 5, 2018
7
It's our 2nd wedding anniversary.

We're in a beautiful hotel in a beautiful city. We should be out enjoying ourselves and celebrating, but we got into another fight, (because that's what we do on vacation).

I cancelled our reservations. He left and went for a walk, and I'm standing on the balcony, 20 floors above.

It seems to easy right now. I could just, climb over and dive into the cold air and it would all be over in a matter of seconds.

No more heartache, no more stress, no more worrying about my job... but I can't bring myself to do it. What is it that I'm so afraid of....
 
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chrijo

chrijo

done
Feb 8, 2019
329
That´s your biggest enemy. Survival instinct.
 
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Sundayafternoon

Sundayafternoon

Cosmic panic
May 18, 2018
394
I hate being a "human".

The first thought to flash into my mind: a beautiful woman, dressed up and ready to go out, lying on the concrete, while cameras flashed around you. I wanted to type, "No!".

That instinct to cling to life, to protect our bodies and often the bodies of others, runs so strong. It's sickening.

I hate that you're having a bad anniversary. I can't offer any words of consolation, but I do understand how it feels to hold such highly conflicted thoughts. Virtual hugs.
 
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borderline_over

Be still
Oct 5, 2018
7
I hate being a "human".

The first thought to flash into my mind: a beautiful woman, dressed up and ready to go out, lying on the concrete, while cameras flashed around you. I wanted to type, "No!".

That instinct to cling to life, to protect our bodies and often the bodies of others, runs so strong. It's sickening.

I hate that you're having a bad anniversary. I can't offer any words of consolation, but I do understand how it feels to hold such highly conflicted thoughts. Virtual hugs.

This made me cry... thank you for your words, they are more consoling than you know <3
 
SkyBlue

SkyBlue

Member
Dec 15, 2018
50
Maybe it still isn't the right thing to do after all... maybe you want to live?
 
Sickman75

Sickman75

Swing On The Spiral
Jan 27, 2019
572
It's our 2nd wedding anniversary.

We're in a beautiful hotel in a beautiful city. We should be out enjoying ourselves and celebrating, but we got into another fight, (because that's what we do on vacation).

I cancelled our reservations. He left and went for a walk, and I'm standing on the balcony, 20 floors above.

It seems to easy right now. I could just, climb over and dive into the cold air and it would all be over in a matter of seconds.

No more heartache, no more stress, no more worrying about my job... but I can't bring myself to do it. What is it that I'm so afraid of....
Im so sorry that your vacation ended up like that. I really am.
 
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