Venting It makes no sense objectively that I continue living

[KillingPain267]

I am traumatized, depressed, can't sleep and get anxiety attacks plus backpain every day and headaches every third day. Only joys are 5 minutes of chewing fast food, lol. Those are just my subjective experiences. On top of that, I can't work or barely function as a human being in social environments, so I am literally useless, worthless and thus I leech off of Earth's ressources that could be better spent on poor children in third world countries who WANT to live. So at this point I see no reason to not ctb except base survival instinct. Therefore, objectively for our species, SI seems highly irrational in my case.

 

[sos]

have you done any attempts at catching the bus though, or is something keeping you from attempting it at all?

 

[EternalSummer]

Bro, they way you put it, just made me laugh . We're on the same boat of desperation and uselessness.

 

[UnluckyBastard]

Same. Haven't been able to hold steady work due to my issues. Meds just make me sick to my stomach. I feel constantly anxious and depressed and angry. I just feel fucking miserable all the time. The longer I put it off the more I suffer. I know how you feel. It's hell.

 

[KillingPain267]

have you done any attempts at catching the bus though, or is something keeping you from attempting it at all?

Yes, SI is too strong. I tried partial while drunk with a bedsheet but got bored when I didn't pass out.

Bro, they way you put it, just made me laugh . We're on the same boat of desperation and uselessness.

I'm happy you're saying that I never thought my words could make someone laugh

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you are suffering a lot, it truly is such a cruel, painful existence, I personally wish suicide is as straightforward as just never waking again more than anything. But anyway best wishes.