I was always fat as a kid, and at 14 I was getting bullied intensely and on the risk of diabetes. Fast forward to 21 and I went through a lot of romantic rejections in life and got it through my thick skull that if I work out hard at the gym, my quality of life would improve. I lost about 30kg in in 3 months, but as a result, I started losing hair. I'm 5'9" and and eventually got my weight from 96kg to 59.8 kg. That's when the lockdown hit, and I was cut off from society and slowly started getting fat again despite working out from home. The lockdown came and went, I started going to the gym again, but my depression was getting so much was. On top of that I was 25, living with my parents and unemployed. And still a kissless virgin. I eventually decided enough was enough. I've lost enough weight, I can maintain it from home by doing cardio every day. Plus I was feeling like a parasite for living with my parents and asking them money for gym. My depression got worse over the next few years, and I had to go on medication. The medication made me put on weight. At one point I gain 10 kilos in a week, despite doing an hour of cardio every day.
now I'm 27, doing my masters in the UK, and almost at 90kg again. I decided to take the gym seriously and I ran for an hour on the treadmill. I tried to do it again the next day, but my shins started hurting. They've been hurting for a while now, and I thought it was because I had gotten fat and lazy. But this time they hurt so much that I couldn't run anymore, even though my heart and muscles felt fine.
I went to the doctor and told him the whole thing. I was always told that the game was fair, but I always knew it was rigged. I tried my hardest to get ahead. Even though I born weak. And then I get this little update that says not only is the game not fair, and rigged, and the guys who are winning are putting in a lot let effort than you, your controller is broken, and this is how it's going to be for the rest of your life. Only in this game there are no second chances.
I'm gonna be 28 soon, I'm still a kissless virgin, I've lost a lot of hair and I look like a middle aged man. But I still get acne like a teenager. My shins hurt like a senior citizen. Meanwhile people who did drugs and smoke and drank daily are getting modelling careers.
Every day I want to OD myself with the meds I have. I want to carve a smile on my face. The only thing stopping me is my need for revenge on those responsible for putting me here.
now I'm 27, doing my masters in the UK, and almost at 90kg again. I decided to take the gym seriously and I ran for an hour on the treadmill. I tried to do it again the next day, but my shins started hurting. They've been hurting for a while now, and I thought it was because I had gotten fat and lazy. But this time they hurt so much that I couldn't run anymore, even though my heart and muscles felt fine.
I went to the doctor and told him the whole thing. I was always told that the game was fair, but I always knew it was rigged. I tried my hardest to get ahead. Even though I born weak. And then I get this little update that says not only is the game not fair, and rigged, and the guys who are winning are putting in a lot let effort than you, your controller is broken, and this is how it's going to be for the rest of your life. Only in this game there are no second chances.
I'm gonna be 28 soon, I'm still a kissless virgin, I've lost a lot of hair and I look like a middle aged man. But I still get acne like a teenager. My shins hurt like a senior citizen. Meanwhile people who did drugs and smoke and drank daily are getting modelling careers.
Every day I want to OD myself with the meds I have. I want to carve a smile on my face. The only thing stopping me is my need for revenge on those responsible for putting me here.
