
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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The people who I am around often in real life like to talk about the future a lot. It immediately fills me with dread. These family members seem to have things to look forward to. I do not understand how people much older than me can still enjoy life, it is a horrifying thought to me growing older. They want to reach a old age and I find that so depressing. I try to tell them about all the bad things that could possibly happen and they will not listen. It is tiring having these types of conversations. They also live pretty boring lives and yet they seem fine with it. I do not understand.
Things will likely get worse for me in the future and I do not want to be there to see it. I just have a bad feeling about everything. I just live a pointless empty existence. It is like I have already died. Existence is tiring and I just want to rest. I know I do not belong on this earth, I should have stayed in the nothingness. I was perfectly fine not existing. Even little things make me feel worse. The thing about this life, is that there is no limit as to how bad things can get, there is unlimited potential for suffering. With death, there is nothing and nothing is what I want.
Things will likely get worse for me in the future and I do not want to be there to see it. I just have a bad feeling about everything. I just live a pointless empty existence. It is like I have already died. Existence is tiring and I just want to rest. I know I do not belong on this earth, I should have stayed in the nothingness. I was perfectly fine not existing. Even little things make me feel worse. The thing about this life, is that there is no limit as to how bad things can get, there is unlimited potential for suffering. With death, there is nothing and nothing is what I want.