Discussion It hurts much when the only life goal you have is to ctb

[HopefulSleep]

As a child my life goal was to become a famous let's player, my life was already bad back then but after my father died I felt empty, I don't feel complete.
I realized some bad things that happened and now my obly goal is to ctb.
It hurts so much.

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly could never be surprising that so many wish to ctb as having the ability to exist in this world really is an horrible thing, as after all there is no relief from suffering as long as one exists here with the potential to suffer so unbearably.

I admire those with the determination to take control over their inevitable fate and free themselves from all future harms, I see suicide as being self care as it's the way to solve every problem, to exit this world has very much been the only thing I've wished for, to me suicide is the only appealing goal. But life certainly is so unnecessarily cruel, it sounds really awful what you've been through, this world where people suffer all through no fault of their own undeniably is so hellish.

 

[wiltingorchid]

It's horrible to see life turn into a nightmare, and I am so sorry for your loss. It is your decision if you want to ctb. What i personally do to make life a little more bearable is to set small goals for myself. Talking to someone, getting out of bed or going outside- it makes me feel like i have a little bit of control of my life.
I wish you the best.