Laststop

Laststop

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Jul 9, 2019
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I don't know how, but I've always managed to have bad luck. Crazy, because I've never really believed in fate, or luck. But I've always managed to have things work out against me. Today is an example. As I already told you guys, I've been getting rid of my things. Today was the day this one auction place lets people bring things in. I busted ass bringing a ton of stuff. They said on their website if I brought it today my stuff would be auctioned Thursday. The people there saw my stuff, and said the Monday one would be better for the kind of things I have. So they would do it for Monday. But...they don't have one this next Monday. Special day off. So I have to wait for next Monday. So two weeks. Then I have to wait (why?) a couple weeks for the check. So I have to wait like a month from now for my money. I was hoping to have it out of the way soon, Just to have my options open. Now I have to wait 4 weeks. I kind of wanted to CTP sooner.
 
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not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
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Do you need the money for your method or is this just more SI telling you you can't leave til stuff is auctioned?
 
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Laststop

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Jul 9, 2019
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Do you need the money for your method or is this just more SI telling you you can't leave til stuff is auctioned?
No. I have the guns I need for CTB. And the money to act out the rough plan I have to do it. Part of it is that I've imagined auctioning this stuff, and what it would fetch. I just want to follow through on it. Maybe one of the last things I do. Maybe I do need to just let it go? I was planning on leaving the information for the authorities to contact my mother to take care of my remains. In doing so I wanted to send her as much as I could scrape together for expenses.
 
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not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
No. I have the guns I need for CTB. And the money to act out the rough plan I have to do it. Part of it is that I've imagined auctioning this stuff, and what it would fetch. I just want to follow through on it. Maybe one of the last things I do. Maybe I do need to just let it go? I was planning on leaving the information for the authorities to contact my mother to take care of my remains. In doing so I wanted to send her as much as I could scrape together for expenses.
That has to be up to you, just wondered if it was a restriction.
But yes, good to help out mom first. Do that.
 
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dreamsofdestruction

dreamsofdestruction

Everywhere I look is chaos
May 9, 2019
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Well, I'm impressed that you can even summon up the energy to organize all that.
 
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Laststop

Laststop

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Jul 9, 2019
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Well, I'm impressed that you can even summon up the energy to organize all that.
I had to force myself. And if it wasn't for the fact that I'm curious what my collection would bring, and I have a vision of leaving an empty place, I don't know that i would have busted ass to do it.
 

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