Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
I tried to kill myself and it didn't work. I will get into it later.
Came back here and wanted to talk to my one friend. Someone who I told everything to, and she understood.
That person was @JadedGray. I then learned she was self banned.
I am in tears right now. For a stranger I met on a forum.
All the loneliness is back. All the thoughts of what I am thinking is crazy and nobody feels the way that I do is back.
I am new to the forum and don't know if @JadedGray is lurking. I am hoping she is.
In the off chance she is, I want to tell her thank you. Thank you for being there. Thank you for being the only person who made me smile. Thank you for understanding me.
It is strange how someone on a forum can be closer to you than people in the real world.
@JadedGray the first person I looked for when I came back was you. During my absence, I thought about our talks.
@JadedGray your life mattered. Your life mattered to me more than you know.
When I try to CTB again, know that I will be thinking about you and how you were so nice to me.
I wish we met somewhere else. It wasn't meant to be. Who knows. Maybe if I had a friend like you in the real world, I wouldn't want to die.
We will meet again some day even if it is over at the Rainbow Bridge, and I cannot wait to say Thank You.
I don't know if you are seeing this. I don't know if you are alive or dead. Just know I will always remember you, thank you for all you did for me, and your kindness and understanding.
Came back here and wanted to talk to my one friend. Someone who I told everything to, and she understood.
That person was @JadedGray. I then learned she was self banned.
I am in tears right now. For a stranger I met on a forum.
All the loneliness is back. All the thoughts of what I am thinking is crazy and nobody feels the way that I do is back.
I am new to the forum and don't know if @JadedGray is lurking. I am hoping she is.
In the off chance she is, I want to tell her thank you. Thank you for being there. Thank you for being the only person who made me smile. Thank you for understanding me.
It is strange how someone on a forum can be closer to you than people in the real world.
@JadedGray the first person I looked for when I came back was you. During my absence, I thought about our talks.
@JadedGray your life mattered. Your life mattered to me more than you know.
When I try to CTB again, know that I will be thinking about you and how you were so nice to me.
I wish we met somewhere else. It wasn't meant to be. Who knows. Maybe if I had a friend like you in the real world, I wouldn't want to die.
We will meet again some day even if it is over at the Rainbow Bridge, and I cannot wait to say Thank You.
I don't know if you are seeing this. I don't know if you are alive or dead. Just know I will always remember you, thank you for all you did for me, and your kindness and understanding.
