Venting it didnt work

[garbagekan]

i tried to cut my artery again but no luck:(

i knew it was pretty pointless to try but im so desperate i cant take it anymore. ive been home alone tonight trying to find any meds i could die from and tried to make a noose with the only thing i found that was long enough but it couldnt get tight enough cause its too stiff. even though i already knew, if i cut my artery it would be too shallow to really kill me i think. i feel like im going insane. its the first time ive broken down crying in a while. everytime i think about living tomorow i start crying again. ive been thinking about stabing myself at this point. i dont even care if its painful or slow i just want it to work i dont care anymore all i want is to die. i just want something that will work.
i forgot to say i could actually cut to get blood but very little thats why i said the shallow part

 

[FuneralCry]

It's truly so horrible and cruel to me how people have to struggle so much to cease existing, I really find it so hellish how there isn't a straightforward way to just easily die in peace. But anyway I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Linda]

Slow down. Think. Then if you are sure that you want to ctb, plan it properly. Judging from your post, you seem to have been "making it up as you go along", and that is not likely to be successful.

Why do you want to die? I can't find any explanation in your past posts (though I may have missed some of them).

 

[theboy]

do not do CTB on impulse