BabyYoda
F*ck this sh!t I'm out
- Dec 30, 2019
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My personal values haven't really changed even after the start of recovery. I just cannot buy into some people's beliefs such as "in order to love others you must love yourself first". I am very very sorry I'm not convinced that is so. I cannot force myself to enjoy solitude for extended periods of time like some people can. I find it near impossible to follow the norm when it comes to dealing with heartbreak, breakups, letting go etc. It seems that those who have it easy are lucky and privileged.
Really, I still believe that laying one's life down for friends is a virtue. This is probably because no one's willing to fight for me so that's why I'm willing to give up my life for someone else since I don't have to worry about others. Many people are taught to be selfish, sadly.
This is not an excuse to not love myself, it's just that I don't see the point in elevating self love as the "greatest love in the universe". I just really really can't be convinced of things sometimes.
Really, I still believe that laying one's life down for friends is a virtue. This is probably because no one's willing to fight for me so that's why I'm willing to give up my life for someone else since I don't have to worry about others. Many people are taught to be selfish, sadly.
This is not an excuse to not love myself, it's just that I don't see the point in elevating self love as the "greatest love in the universe". I just really really can't be convinced of things sometimes.