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YoYoYiggitiYo
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- Jan 11, 2023
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I've read articles through the years about how easy it was to get any illicit substance/object on the darknet, especially illicit drugs like fentanyl (apparently it's everywhere!!!). I figured once I'd set myself up to access DNMs I'd be able to land enough pentobarbital and/or fentanyl to CTB and it would all be done within a month. Now I just found this website and I'm here because it ain't easy. Nobody sells that stuff and DNMs are garbage DDoSed crap.
This sucks. And to make things worst, I already thought our society was terrible when it came to suicide prevention, but now I'm also aware of the existence of people (the absolute scum of the earth) who scam those who seek to die in (relative) peace and comfort.
I wish I'd done it 6 years ago when I learned of the SN method, all those years I've had it all laid out on a notepad sitting on my desktop. Would probably have been able to score some N back then too. Since my early 20s (more than a decade) I've known that this would be the time - and it finally hit me like a ton of bricks a month ago.
This has been more frustrating than it should be. I should be able to walk into my local pharmacy and order some N. You get X months of waiting period during which you're put in contact with a psychiatrist. X months later you get your N if you still want it. Nobody can say you did it out of impulse and nobody can say with help you'd have pulled through. Sounds like a decent compromise.
I'm sitting on 2g of heroin to IV and 1g of flualprazolam to ingest - I'm not sure if I should settle for this or grab some SN. I can't miss.
I'm also weirdly ashamed of even being on this forum - this whole consciousness and experience thing is fucked.
This sucks. And to make things worst, I already thought our society was terrible when it came to suicide prevention, but now I'm also aware of the existence of people (the absolute scum of the earth) who scam those who seek to die in (relative) peace and comfort.
I wish I'd done it 6 years ago when I learned of the SN method, all those years I've had it all laid out on a notepad sitting on my desktop. Would probably have been able to score some N back then too. Since my early 20s (more than a decade) I've known that this would be the time - and it finally hit me like a ton of bricks a month ago.
This has been more frustrating than it should be. I should be able to walk into my local pharmacy and order some N. You get X months of waiting period during which you're put in contact with a psychiatrist. X months later you get your N if you still want it. Nobody can say you did it out of impulse and nobody can say with help you'd have pulled through. Sounds like a decent compromise.
I'm sitting on 2g of heroin to IV and 1g of flualprazolam to ingest - I'm not sure if I should settle for this or grab some SN. I can't miss.
I'm also weirdly ashamed of even being on this forum - this whole consciousness and experience thing is fucked.