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Arcanist
- Jun 29, 2018
- 478
Long story short I've been going to the doctors for three years because of my chronic condition with no results and now looking forward to surgery. After so much time alone and worry it just sucks the life out of you. In the beginning you fight but after a while everything goes. It breaks your spirit, leaves you a mess mentally, and leaves you exhausted wishing you were dead. Anybody else dealing with similar circumstances? I attempted suicide once and am lucky I survived, but I'm back to the same shit. I'm a worrier by nature so death scares me but every morning I wake up in a panic when I start to think how screwed I might really be. I don't want this whole trauma to be for nothing as I have a lawsuit pending since this was the result of medical malpractice. This has drained my whole family and if I can't live a decent then I at least want them to live well. I wonder how can I not think why me when I was completely healthy before everything was wrongfully taken fr8me in one night. How would anybody else go about this? I feel completely alone and stuck in my body and mind. Any advice would be appreciated.