Discussion Is your mind deteriorating?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Are your powers of concentration and focus getting worse?

 

[Ch92921]

I am confused more and more.

 

[Arrow]

No I'm just lazy as fuck and I don't feel like focusing I think.

 

[Ch92921]

Yeah lazy!

 

[xianv111]

My cognitive deterioration is one of the main reasons to CTB for me. I just feel like a total idiot. I cannot focus, my attention span is shit and my working memory is fucked. Reading and other intellectual activities were the last things that were making my pathetic existence somewhat valuable and enjoyable. I'm also too tired to do anything independently of the amount of sleep I have.

 

[Beeper]

I feel like my ability to deal with external stimuli has been reduced over time. I get bothered by loud noises and find it difficult to focus when there is background noise.

For me these symptoms may be somewhat mood congruent. I am currently dealing with significant depression.

I find myself seeking quiet solitude most of the time.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I feel like my ability to deal with external stimuli has been reduced over time. I get bothered by loud noises and find it difficult to focus when there is background noise.

For me these symptoms may be somewhat mood congruent. I am currently dealing with significant depression.

I find myself seeking quiet solitude most of the time.

Me too - I just got a bite to eat and then I came back and I went straight back to my couch… The only thing I can really consume as far as media Is this forum …
I can't imagine if I actually had to go out and try to get some kind of job… Which is why… CTb

 

[alwaysdopesick]

it's a combination of genuine brain damage from drug use fucking with my cognition, and being a lazy fuck that has no motivation whatsoever. I'm just not who I used to be, happy, charming, witty.... im none of those things now, im a freak, I've become complete trash, I just wanna be worm food.

 

[Deadweight]

I disengage a lot. When people talk to me, I know all the tricks of active listening to appear I'm engaged in what they're saying, but I just don't care. All I can muster is the occasional 'yes' or 'hmm.." while I fight with my attention to not tune out.

I'm indifferent to everything now, all I think about with any reason consideration is suicide. I maintain the bare minimum that constitutes as merely existing, nothing that resembles actual living. I run regularly in the mornings because I know without that I'm utterly stagnant. Ah fuck I want out. I don't want to be this person but all my failed attempts to get out in the past indicate I can't be anything more than a deadbeat.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, as the years go on I have ended up feeling more and more tired of everything. I have always struggled to concentrate though, but that has gotten worse over time. I have no energy for anything. I am always lost in my own thoughts. In a way it is like I have already died.

 

[4eyebiped]

My memory and focus vacated the premise long ago. Sometimes I sit back and try to think about the whys of my past, how did I get to where I am now the way I am, and I literally do not remember most of my life, childhood or adulthood. Sitting here I managed to remember the last names of three of my teachers. I must confess, I haven't really done much that is worth remembering. I created a 4 wall prison in which I am the tyrannical jailor and the maddening inmate.

One of the traps some of us fall into is that we spend so much time playing the broken record of our misery, that we do not focus on the here and the now. Focus is what lets short term memory find its way into long term. Divided attention, the ability to instantly look up any fact on google in the blink of an eye and having all our devices remind us when its time to do our daily tasks or wish someone a happy birthday, all go into letting our minds weaken. Our bad habits start to create the very things that perpetuate our misery, our regrets and turn our desire to not exist.

Now, I know this isn't the case for all here, but I imagine this pertains to some here and in the world. This is also a bit overly simplifying the situation, but as usual, I like to present a side, a thought or a perspective on things.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

it's a combination of genuine brain damage from drug use fucking with my cognition, and being a lazy fuck that has no motivation whatsoever. I'm just not who I used to be, happy, charming, witty.... im none of those things now, im a freak, I've become complete trash, I just wanna be worm food.

Likewise, I used to be the life of the party - Now I'm just a drag… time to exit…