Help Is this what depersonalization feels like?

[mimimisaki]

So, I posted this on r/mentalhealth, but it's still awaiting mods approval so I thought I might as well ask in here, since this is kind of stressing me out. Here goes the post:

Hi everyone! For a bit of context (not sure how relevant this is, but leaving it here anyway) I've struggled with major depressiva disorder for several years, and am on antidepressants.

So basically, on new years eve I went to a party my best friend organized, and overall had a great time. Drank way too much, and a friend of mine had taken some weed with him, so I ended up smoking some for the first time in my life. At the time it was fun and everything.

Except that since then I've been feeling kinda weird. I noticed this on the morning after, but at the time I just thought it might be because I was hungover. It just feels like, you know when you're in a dream, and your body is like doing things, but you're just sort of watching it with no real control? It's like I'm seeing things through a dream, like I don't feel connected to what's happening around me, and my body takes action without me thinking it. Also, I say things without having decided I was going to say it, it just sort of comes out on its own. The only other time I remember feeling like this was after I attempted to take my life a couple years ago (at the time I just thought it might be a reaction to the traumatic situation).

My mom also noticed my hands have been shaking oretty badly. Not sure if this has to do at all, because they do shake sometimes as a side effect of my meds, but she'd never noticed it before so I'm not sure if they're shaking more or not.

Anyway I'm wondering if this might be depersonalization, and if so, in your experience, how long might it take for it to pass?

Sorry if something in here doesn't make much sense. I've reread it, but still I'm not confident I've written it properly.

 

[wilting_flower]

Experienced stoner here

I'd be careful mixing weed with anything, especially on your first few times, it sounds like dissociation which is a side effect of extreme anxiety. seems like from your shaky hands that might be the case too, and you're just not feeling it because of the dissociation.

As someone who has also become psychotic from weed and is also on antidepressants, the saying and doing stuff without deciding reminds me of that. again that could just be intoxication though. I find my mind races on weed nowadays and I can't really do too much of it at all.

Point being, give it time. you're probably fine, but make sure to respect weed, it's way too strong and super easy to become dependant on it. speaking from experience.

 

[ipmanwc0]

I've had chronic DPDR for years, weed is one of the primary things that cause it. tag me if you have any questions abt it

 

[overtakee]

I've had chronic DPDR for years, weed is one of the primary things that cause it. tag me if you have any questions abt it

when did you notice that weed was causing it? i smoke and sometimes i feel like im experiencing dissociation but im not entirely sure and i dont want to risk anything

 

[ipmanwc0]

when did you notice that weed was causing it? i smoke and sometimes i feel like im experiencing dissociation but im not entirely sure and i dont want to risk anything

for me it was because of stress/anxiety, not weed, never smoked weed. for the people who've said they got it from weed, they wish they had never smoked weed. i don't know if they got it from a single use or continued use, u can see on r/dpdr. but many people smoke weed and are fine. it's up to u if that risk is worth it, DPDR ruined my life though :(. hopefully it's not permanent