WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

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Oct 24, 2019
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All day yesterday, I felt kind of down. Spent most of the day in bed. Later on in the day, about 7pm, I suddenly felt pretty good. I started laughing at a "joke" I don't remember (possibly CtB related) for a good 2-5 minutes. A previous example is when I hurt my ribs and I couldn't stop laughing because it hurt and it hurt because I was laughing (a vicious cycle). I also had a rictus grin for some amount of time. It took 2 Ambien and a bunch of melatonin to put me out. This morning, I had to take a drive. I cranked one of the songs and drove with the same rictus grin, getting up to 90mph and kind of was twitching with ecstacy. I had to compose myself before getting out of the car.

Is this a manic episode, some sort of psychosis or something else?

I calmed down a bit since this morning. Still, a strange occurrence that happens on occassion. I don't really know what it is.
 
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Nem

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Sounds like a normal day for me. Do you ever get hypomanic etc?
Peace/hugs
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

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Hypomania is a good thing to look into. There have been periods were I felt really excited about things and definitely did some reckless things.
 
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Nem

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Hypomania is a good thing to look into. There have been periods were I felt really excited about things and definitely did some reckless things.
Yeah it can be good until things slide down, definitely something to look into❤️
 
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MisanthropicLycan

MisanthropicLycan

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Nov 4, 2019
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I have bipolar depression and this behavior you describe resembles a moderate wave of mania for me.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

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I have bipolar depression and this behavior you describe resembles a moderate wave of mania for me.

Thank you. I'll have to bring it up.
Yeah it can be good until things slide down, definitely something to look into❤

Yeah. Feels good. Then, I do something stupid. Glad this time it isn't accompanied by rage.
 
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MisanthropicLycan

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No problem. Sometimes I will laugh to exhaustion over a stupid joke. I will also pace around in my house repeating some absurd phrase I find funny over and over again in different strange voices. I will continue doing this increasing in volume until I am practically screaming it. I don't even notice I'm acting like a freak until a family member tells me I am stuck in a manic loop.
 
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Wreck-it-Riley

Wreck-it-Riley

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Oct 20, 2019
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I have a similar situation with Borderline personality. Cluster B and mania is freaky, you can end up doing some wild stuff. Borderline mania sounds a lot like this too, reckless driving and intense emotions.

Mania can be very destructive, if possible for you i would recommend seeing somebody about it. early treatment can make symptom management much easier.
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

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No problem. Sometimes I will laugh to exhaustion over a stupid joke. I will also pace around in my house repeating some absurd phrase I find funny over and over again in different strange voices. I will continue doing this increasing in volume until I am practically screaming it. I don't even notice I'm acting like a freak until a family member tells me I am stuck in a manic loop.

It's cool that you have people to bring you back. I have scared people when I've gone out of control.
I have a similar situation with Borderline personality. Cluster B and mania is freaky, you can end up doing some wild stuff. Borderline mania sounds a lot like this too, reckless driving and intense emotions.

Mania can be very destructive, if possible for you i would recommend seeing somebody about it. early treatment can make symptom management much easier.

You're right. I've done stupid stuff.
 
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GreyMonkey

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Aug 20, 2019
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Sorry I meant sleeping
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

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Feb 15, 2019
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I do this where I have wild bouts of energy and I get excited and dance and sing at the top of my lungs. I laugh hysterically. Looking back, years later I think there mania episodes
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

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Sorry I meant sleeping
Yes. And, no. Yes, in that it's taking more Ambien and melatonin to put me out and I've been getting less sleep because of that. At least a double dose. No, because I try to knock myself out early so I don't have to be awake.

I do this where I have wild bouts of energy and I get excited and dance and sing at the top of my lungs. I laugh hysterically. Looking back, years later I think there mania episodes
Hindsight is great.
 
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mediocre

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Nov 9, 2019
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No I don't think this is a manic episode I regularly experience this. I don't have BPD but I have aspergers. I could be asleep then suddenly wake up and be daydreaming about something funny in my past. Or an embarrassing moment that makes me cringe. This happens all the time.

I also laugh at inappropriate times and people look at me like wtf.
 
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Thank you. I'm going to bring this up and explore the options.
 

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