Is this enough?

[Toomanymistakes55]

Hi,
I am a long time reader, first time poster.
I have struggled with depression and anxiety for years, but in the last few months, after a messy and nasty divorce (my own fault) I just can't carry on anymore, I don't particularly want to die but I am stuck and drowning and I can't see a way out, so I want to be gone. The only good thing in my life is my new boyfriend who I am devastated to leave behind, but every other part of my life is falling apart and there isn't a way to fix it.
I have stored up 1020mg of Codeine, in the form of Nurofen plus and am hoping to get drunk and take this with anti nausea/vomiting pills. I also have Promethazine and Pizotifen, I'm not sure if that will help or not. My question is, is that enough Codeine to check me out of here?

 

[ghostspace]

Please stay on here for a little while longer. It sounds like you're not really sure about CTB and this site is full of supportive and caring people, a lot who could probably empathize with your specific situation. Your life is yours to do what you want with, but it sounds like things could be looking up with the new boyfriend and you deserve to have something good in your life, especially after all you've been through.

Death is always an option, you can hold onto the pills for now and just see how the next few days seem, or the next week. Either way, you have support here.

ODing is risky, multiple organ failure is excruciatingly painful. Please educate yourself as much as possible before going through with anything.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I'm not sure if you'll end your life with that combo, but I can pretty well guarantee that if you survive, you're going to be coupled with misery and pain.

If you don't really want to die, then don't try. I see that things look bleak now, but you're not without some hope. You say that you can't see the light, but there are plenty of people here with flashlights, lol.

Wanting the tough times to end is not the same as wanting to die. In fact, they're quite different.

Please hang around here for a while and do some reading. The information you need to succeed is here along with a very supportive group of people. We are pro-choice and no one will pressure you in a particular way.

Welcome. We're listening.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Welcome to the forum! I'm in the same boat with you right now where I want to be gone but I still am not 100% sure about dying. We're all here to listen and there are others who feel like you. Please talk and know that SS is a welcoming kind community. Lots of hugs and please don't do anything impulsive

 

[HannahB]

Welcome. From my research I find it takes on average 500-1000 mg to od. Basically your making purple drank If you add the Promethazine. Mixed with alcohol or not this can be a deadly mixture.

That being said there are other paths to happiness if you desire. It sounds like this isnt really something you want to do and that's ok no one here will judge you either way. If you need someone to talk to or would like information on other paths feel free to send me a message.