BipolarGuy
Enlightened
- Aug 6, 2020
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My tracking has updated today and the parcel is now in my country.
What a relief after several days of no updates.
Things are probably going to start happening in the next week and half (though I do have arrangements to make and things to sort out).
Just wanted to get people's opinion on this...
There are a few people who I know in real life who care about me and will be genuinely be sad when the time comes.
But although my family and others will be 'sad', the fact is they contributed massively to how I'm feeling, and they know it.
Is it 'right' of me to want them to feel shame/guilt/etc?
I'm not doing this to hurt them of course, but god knows the torment they've put me through.
Emotional abuse since I was a child, manipulation, lack of basic respect and judgement from people who should know better.
If they're going to treat me bad and not help, then live with the consequences is what I say.
This probably sounds bad, but christ I hope this strikes at the very core of their being and shakes the foundations of their self.
I'm bitter, does it come across at all?
What a relief after several days of no updates.
Things are probably going to start happening in the next week and half (though I do have arrangements to make and things to sort out).
Just wanted to get people's opinion on this...
There are a few people who I know in real life who care about me and will be genuinely be sad when the time comes.
But although my family and others will be 'sad', the fact is they contributed massively to how I'm feeling, and they know it.
Is it 'right' of me to want them to feel shame/guilt/etc?
I'm not doing this to hurt them of course, but god knows the torment they've put me through.
Emotional abuse since I was a child, manipulation, lack of basic respect and judgement from people who should know better.
If they're going to treat me bad and not help, then live with the consequences is what I say.
This probably sounds bad, but christ I hope this strikes at the very core of their being and shakes the foundations of their self.
I'm bitter, does it come across at all?