Discussion Is there something you're waiting for before ctb?

[Toybox]

For me, I want to see what it's like in my mid 20's and maybe at max 30.
I have a feeling things will get bad before I reach that age and I'll end up doing it younger, but for now that's how I've planned things
Even if I stop being suicidal at 30, I think I still want to ctb because I'm afraid of dying a horrible death and instead I want to ensure a peaceful ending

Is there anything you're waiting for?

 

[Mer]

Well, I'm already 30,

Like you, I decided to push through my 20's and try to make things work out.

They didn't.

I'm waiting till the end of the year to CTB. Just watching movies, shows and playing games until then.

 

[Xdyzine]

I'm 33, I'm waiting till my parents pass. Or if by some miracle my brain decides to re-wire itself.

 

[demuic]

I'm not really waiting for anything. I just know if I CTB my mom will be a wreck, and I don't want that. But eventually I might no longer care. I don't know how when that will be.

Maybe I'd like to try some drugs before I CTB, but I don't even know where to get any. Maybe I'd like to travel to another country, but I'm broke.

For things that are more realistically achievable, there are some video games I'd like to finish, maybe a few shows, some books if I ever gain the ability to read them again.

 

[epic]

I am waiting for my physical health to go from bad to worse.

 

[Kat!]

cyber punk 2077

 

[iftheworldwasending]

get the courage to pull the trigger, honestly. just a waiting game for me at this point.

 

[Miss_Takes]

get the courage to pull the trigger, honestly. just a waiting game for me at this point.

I too am waiting for courage

 

[CalmStrikeofMercy]

I have no idea how we even got here as a species.

<calm>Want Azael to come get me and help make sure everything is done correctly with an added hope that they can harvest me for someone who needs my organs more than myself in exchange for a painless death.
In the tongue of the snake:...it is an even trade off.

It is lawless and chaotic in the U.S. Would rather go on my own terms. It is just death, rape, sti, torture, hospital, bombing, shooting, stabbing, child abuse, jail, or chains in here.
I cannot make sense of people anymore. Used to get by living like an automaton and mentally checking out to some degree and accepting the licks of the fire and the cuts of people's tongues and bruise from their actions. I cannot anymore.</calm>

 

[Latios]

I guess I'm waiting to finish my degree...

But maybe that's just me being a coward....idk...

 

[fly away]

I can't believe I'm still here. But I have children and that's been stopping me from going. I know it will ruin their lives and I just can't do it. I think about CTB all the time, I'm ready, but I'm stuck here.
At least for now.

 

[IAmExhausted]

I can't believe I'm still here. But I have children and that's been stopping me from going. I know it will ruin their lives and I just can't do it. I think about CTB all the time, I'm ready, but I'm stuck here.
At least for now.

Oh, I can imagine. Having own children must be big reason to not go this route. At least I'd say it depends how old they are and how strong you are related to them.

 

[mimiopo22]

Per me, voglio vedere com'è a metà degli anni '20 e forse al massimo a 30.
Ho la sensazione che le cose andranno male prima di raggiungere quell'età e finirò per farlo più giovane, ma per ora è così che ho pianificato le cose
Anche se smetto di suicidarmi a 30 anni, penso di voler comunque ctb perché ho paura di morire di una morte orribile e invece voglio assicurarmi una fine pacifica

C'è qualcosa che stai aspettando?

no. i want only ctb.