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Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,285
i know I need a job for money but every job I've had has led me to suicidal ideation within days. Other people have friends, a spouse, or kids to look forward to seeing after work, but what's the point if you have none of that?
 
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skitliv

skitliv

Le mort joyeux
Jul 11, 2018
484
To buy alcohol and cigarettes
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
795
Im the same Volatile. Thats why I never last at jobs. I don't see the point if I dont have them things you have mentioned in your post!

Im glad its not just me who goes through this. I applied for a job today, fuck knows why, ill last a month wait until pay day then leave them. Same pattern over and over.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Still Alive and still Suicidal
Aug 8, 2018
408
I know what you mean almost every job I've had has made me more suicidal and would come home to no one.
 
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creatureoflight

Mage
Jul 27, 2018
529
i know I need a job for money but every job I've had has led me to suicidal ideation within days. Other people have friends, a spouse, or kids to look forward to seeing after work, but what's the point if you have none of that?
Spouses and kids are overrated.
I have a BF but love being alone too.
 
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Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,285
Im the same Volatile. Thats why I never last at jobs. I don't see the point if I dont have them things you have mentioned in your post!

Im glad its not just me who goes through this. I applied for a job today, fuck knows why, ill last a month wait until pay day then leave them. Same pattern over and over.
Same here. Being an adult is fucking terrible
 
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creatureoflight

Mage
Jul 27, 2018
529
Never liked cigarettes and alcohol interferes with my anxiety medication :(
I have always self medicated my anxiety with kava kava, alcohol and valerian root as I am too scared of anxiety meds:/ I also hated not being able to drink on other meds (against migraines) so that I dropped them. But I drink 2-3x a month at most.
 
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Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,285
Im the same Volatile. Thats why I never last at jobs. I don't see the point if I dont have them things you have mentioned in your post!

Im glad its not just me who goes through this. I applied for a job today, fuck knows why, ill last a month wait until pay day then leave them. Same pattern over and over.

I last about 3 months. My resume shows a pattern which means i'll soon be unemployable
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
795
I last about 3 months. My resume shows a pattern which means i'll soon be unemployable

Im already unemployable. I have gaps for over 2 years. i could do a driving job, least im not with people all the time like I am in a call centre.

If I could be alone and get paid for doing something, Id do it.
 
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Volatile

Volatile

God
Jun 18, 2018
1,285
Im already unemployable. I have like gaps for over 2 years. i could do a driving job, least im not with people all the time like I am in a call centre.

If I could be alone and get paid for doing something, Id do it.

Driving jobs don't care about gaps?
 
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Ashpac

Ashpac

Lost and always will be.
Jul 22, 2018
795
Driving jobs don't care about gaps?

Alot of the ones ive checked on indeed want experience which is annoying. I know how to drive, just because Ive never been employed as a driver does not mean I cant do the job. Idiots that they are!
 
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andurilandpalantir

andurilandpalantir

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
222
Im already unemployable. I have gaps for over 2 years. i could do a driving job, least im not with people all the time like I am in a call centre.

If I could be alone and get paid for doing something, Id do it.
I'm in the same boat. Unemployable, broke AF. Endless cycle of job hunting then NCNS. I'm exhausted. And fuck call centers. There's only so many times you can tank downright abusive language before you spiral down in a pit of depression. Then there's being micro-managed on ridiculous targets, mindless superficial bees for co-workers, a pantry where EVERY food is reheated to a point it no longer resembles food and taste exactly the same ...
 
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Radaghast94

Member
Aug 25, 2018
50
Not really, when I was working sure I had cash and could say I did something but without the ability to enjoy social interactions and life generally it seemed fucking meaningless. Like rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic. Might as well hit the iceberg and go down with the ship
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
Yes. So i can buy the only things that make me somewhat "happy". Or at least not downright suicidal for a little while.
 
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