cali22♡

cali22♡

Selfharm Specialist♡
Nov 11, 2023
264
Hello everyone,
I used to be a happy girl who enjoyed leaving the house every day to go to school, meet friends (yes I used to have friends) and go out in the evenings. . .

Well, it feels like that's been over for 4 years now. . .

Because of my depression I feel worse now than ever before.

I would like to know if you have ever had a good time in your life or experienced something nice. .

Thank you very much
 
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whywere

Visionary
Jun 26, 2020
2,952
YES!

Summer 1981, lady from Germany. She REALLY taught me "the ways of the world"!

Walter
 
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ilikehamsters

ilikehamsters

Sleep, sleep is my happy place
Oct 2, 2024
28
Yeah my 18-21ish period enjoyed going out, my education had dreams that i thought where possible felt like i had endless energy.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,293
I flourished in high school. I was in a whole big group of friends [still in touch with two of them ~20 years later], I aced all of my classes with no effort. My mental health hadn't shattered yet; I had OCD, but was in treatment which worked wonders and I hadn't become bipolar yet. My physical health wasn't too bad yet.

Been all downhill since I finished high school.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,766
The year I miss is 2014. I was in my early twenties, working my first job, and going to college. Everything started going downhill after that year ended, but 2017 and later is when things really went to shit.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,883
I miss 2015-2019 when I was regularly playing Smash Bros (originally Smash 4 then we moved onto Ultimate) with my community college friends. I was also active in the school's esports club at the time helping to host events, attending tournaments, etc. I was still pretty depressed and miserable around this time but at least I could forget about all that just by playing a game I wasn't even good at. Then Covid happened and I haven't entered a tournament since but at least I've hung out with some of these same friends a few times since then…
 
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Ichigo

Ichigo

Member
Jun 15, 2023
91
I always identified my memories by how "hot" or "cold" they were. I don't know if anyone else has experienced this temperatured based feeling! So for my happiest memories I feel really warm, i can literally feel the warmness filling my body when I recall them. But... if you asked me to recall specific details like what exactly happened, I couldn't tell you or I would just make up stuff! It's always been weird to me that I can't really remember my past, especially these recent years, it's like when I try to recall what has happened the last couple years.... my mind goes blank....
I guess It's because now that I'm older I don't see or experience as much as unique stuff anymore..most days im just at home playing games or on my computer.
 
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InversedShadow

InversedShadow

Student
Dec 28, 2023
161
I miss my childhood and middle school period, I was much more passionate, more persistent, had that energy in me, several friends, those were good days!
 
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Lish

Lish

I, too, shall burn
Jun 4, 2024
24
2000s to 2015

It was the ideal space of time for me in history. If I had a different family, I would have been immensely more elated with my life. I would not be here.

Instead, I was not allowed to be myself. My failures were bolstered and I was silenced. I should have had friends that supported me. I should have had a family that loved me, not just the version of me they desperately tried to create in their head. I should have had lovers who didn't distill me down to a dick and what my body looked like.

If I did, that time would have been perfection.
 
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dune_dweller

dune_dweller

Puella Aeternus
Sep 6, 2024
53
Yes, there was this small Golden Age phase between the spring of 2005 and the summer of 2006 that I wish I could re-live.

But at the end of the day, "ya can't go back, Bob" (TWD reference).
 
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-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

Specialist
Jun 16, 2024
384
I was happier when I was a child. Fell off the wagon in middle school. Actually, probably earlier, I was a pretty weird kid I think.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

If life is so short, why is it taking so long?
Oct 21, 2024
6
The mid to upper 70s when I was between 5 and 10 years old. Once my preteen years got here, it's been hell.
 
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SweetItalianS

SweetItalianS

Member
Aug 11, 2024
39
I always identified my memories by how "hot" or "cold" they were. I don't know if anyone else has experienced this temperatured based feeling! So for my happiest memories I feel really warm, i can literally feel the warmness filling my body when I recall them. But... if you asked me to recall specific details like what exactly happened, I couldn't tell you or I would just make up stuff! It's always been weird to me that I can't really remember my past, especially these recent years, it's like when I try to recall what has happened the last couple years.... my mind goes blank....
I guess It's because now that I'm older I don't see or experience as much as unique stuff anymore..most days im just at home playing games or on my computer.
Interesting, somewhat reminds me of synesthesia, personally my best time was probably a short period when I met my first serious gf in person and we spent a few days together, it was so romantic and loving, I broke up with her due to some life moments but I really cherish the memories about that, it really was like some sort of romance movie :)
 
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HereIGoAgain24

HereIGoAgain24

Member
Sep 2, 2024
40
I want to say middle school- sixth and seventh grade. I was a great student without even trying to be, I had genuine interests in movies and comics, some great friends, and the world didn't seem nearly as dystopian as it does it now. Admittedly, it wasn't perfect- I was seriously overweight, which I wasn't happy with- but on the whole, there was a real sense of optimism.
 
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anorang

anorang

Member
Aug 17, 2024
10
I can't remember anything my childhood. But I don't have any trauma I think so maybe the answer is yes. Anything is better than whatever the fuck I'm having rn I'm just dreading and depressed . Probably back to the time before I went to university bcz that's where it all started I think.
 
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Z-A

Let me go
Mar 3, 2024
329
Middle school times, 2010-2015 were the years before everything went downhill.
 
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TrulyCursed

TrulyCursed

End of the road
Oct 24, 2024
3
Primary/elementary school was the last time I was truly happy
 
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asthedayends00

Member
Oct 18, 2024
16
Everything before 2 years ago.. :/
 
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