Olek Messier 87
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- Sep 1, 2024
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That's very cool, well I hope you'll have the opportunity to go there, or go back. For me, it was to make a series of comics and get published; and both have been done, so...There are a few places I'd like to visit/revisit. Mostly water related- the coastline, rivers, waterfalls. How about you?
That's very cool, well I hope you'll have the opportunity to go there, or go back. For me, it was to make a series of comics and get published; and both have been done, so...
Thank you very much, I'd like to tell you that it has put me on the starting line of recovery, as I thought it would, but not a bit really.That's awesome. Congratulations.
That's tough, didn't find anything yet maybe.Nope, there's nothing that I want to do. I simply don't like life itself and there's nothing in life that I want to do
Well, can't help you with that, pal
Thank you very much, I'd like to tell you that it has put me on the starting line of recovery, as I thought it would, but not a bit really.
So, we're talking about Ireland ? Scotland ? This kind of coastline ?
These places look amazing, exactly the kind I like too; It would take balls to choose this way of leaving indeed, or a real passion for nature !I'd really like to visit The Strid river. We wooshed past it once going somewhere else and it looked beautiful. Deadly too. A very dangerous river. Not that that would be my method! I'd like to see The Lake District again. Only briefly been to Scotland and never to Ireland but I'm sure they are very beautiful. I probably should look into them. Have you travelled much? Any recommendations?
Yes it really is a demanding work but I still enjoy it as much, however it's a pleasure that tends to drive you more and more crazy. Alone behind your drawing table 12 hours a day on average, it's a bit alienating, especially when you are subject to the kind of disorders that we share on this forum.Do you still enjoy drawing, writing, creating? I think it's quite often a love, hate relationship with creative people and their work. It can be as equally frustrating as it is fulfilling.
Probably yes, but I don't see what's wrong with it. The reason we're all still here is precisely because we don't want it bad enough. I knew a man who committed suicide by stabbing himself forty times in his family home (absolutely true story), that's the kind of motivation I don't have.Nope, just want it all to end. Unfortunately I don't have the guts to do it. I can't explain it, just don't. Guess I don't want it bad enough "yet"?
Well, let's hope you'll have the opportunity to go somewhere else. What's your country (if you don't mind me asking) ?The thing that I want the most is to move out from my shit country, and I will not think about death again
But as long as I'm here, i just wanna die.
Are you 85 years old? Have you suffered like this all your life ?No . i don't want to do anything except ctb. I don't want anything in this evil life and this evil world.
No one can convince me that I should want to do anything especially not live.
No one can convince my why I have to think something is important , valuable , good .
nothing matters.
The only thing that matters to me is avoiding long lasting excruciating unbearable pain and extreme suffering. so someone would have to first convince me that anything is important good by itself and then good enough to go through undending constant excruciating unbearable pain : good luck with that . I can't say this practically anywhere else so all i can do is challenge those here to prove to me convince how anything is objectively valuable . there isn't anything except avoiding extreme pain as i described. life is meaningless. there is no purpose to life. nothing matters. that stands alone by itself : nothing matters life is meaningless . but on top of that you had that you have to risk extreme torture for meaningless addictions . on top of that you have to work like a animal every day and every day lower level suffering problems bad memories not the extreme pain yet but that will get there by age 85 believe me. additionally you are prisoner slave in an imposition and they made more of a prison by criminalizing Nembutal assisted suicide etc. so it's multiple levels of reasons summed . and then on top of that I am just 30 trillion cells same cells as any other DNA machine . and there's even more i won't say . all this for some dumb addiction like watching youtube or whatever they say is soo good or important . i reject it all . non-existence is the only thing i crave because it's the oppossite of this horrible prison world and evil life . nothing matters. life is meaningless suffering torture prison slavery an evil imposition.
I could expand each of these sentences into a book to describe and explain the hell more. and add many more chapters.
I worked in a nursing home and saw many people suffering unimaginable suffering pain nightmares dementia etc.Are you 85 years old? Have you suffered like this all your life ?
If you end up in Vegas.. pm me.Probably have sex one more time. I'll probably have to utilize the services of a pro, though.
Thats what male escorts are forI'd love to go on a proper romantic date with someone I have chemistry with. Get swept off my feet a bit. Never happened in my life. My dates so far have been few, extremely unhappy and painful like pulling teeth.
Unfortunately they don't really make "boyfriend experiences" for straight women Oh well. Guess I'll just keep chugging along
I read this as "that's what they're for -- skydiving and drugs" at first, and thought wow, didn't know sex work could have such a thrilling angleThats what male escorts are for
Skydiving and drugs
At the same time ?Skydiving and drugs